Stray Kids 9th Member ~ Shine Pt.1

I am YOU Pt.2

Sammy tried to express his feelings in this yet backs down in fear of screwing up group dynamic.

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After about a week of promotions and becoming friends to ALL of Monsta X Sammy was tired. Tired all around actually. He was just cuddling Changbin who came to cheer up the eldest. He appreciated the affection from his fellow Hyung Liner. The two were talking about everything and nothing. "Irene messaged me about Jooheon-Hyung." Changbin mumbles. "Did she now?" Sitting up slightly Sammy looks at Changbin with curiosity. "Yes, she doesn't have to tell you everything."

"I understand that. But if it's about Jooheon-Hyung, I'm curious." Changbin chuckles. "It's really nothing."

"Ok then. If it was something important I trust that you'd tell me." Sammy settles back into cuddling and says, "Lowkey this is gay."

"You're gay."

"Damn you right." They chuckle. Jisung comes in with Minho following. "That's not something you see everyday." Jisung chuckles. "No, not really." Minho agrees. Changbin turns to hide his embarrassment from the other members and now it's even gayer. Sammy smirks. "Now this is highkey gay."

"Oh shut up." Changbin smacks Sammy's chest. "Ok but tell me this, why do Stays think you're a top?"

"What??? Stays- they- shut up they do not."

"Hey I see their thirst tweets on Twitter and the various r18 plus videos on YouTube and Instagram."

"I'm not gay though-"

"LIES!" Minho yells. "Shut up Minho!" Sammy chuckles. "It doesn't matter really. If you gay, bi, or whatever, you're still Changbin. Our Main Rapper and producer." Sammy mumbles and Changbin smiles. Bang Chan walks in, "Sammy can we talk?"

"Yeah sure." Changbin reluctantly lets go of Sammy and Sammy smiles apologetically to Changbin. Bang Chan and Sammy walk into an empty room. "You've been quiet since the beginning of promotions and ever since Irene's harassment. Are you ok?" Sammy sighs. "I should have told you a longggg time ago. Maybe you forgot but before that let's sit down." They sit down side by side. "Have I ever told you about the second incident in high school?"

"I don't recall a second incident. Is this like the first one?"

"With that guy I trusted? Yeah." Chan went quiet his attention directed only to Sammy. "Unlike the first incident I had no idea who this guy was. And this was in broad daylight in the bathrooms at school." Sammy's stomach turned and he held his stomach in disgust. "You'd think I'd be able to protect myself better after the first incident but this was during lunch so nobody noticed me missing nor did they notice him missing. Nobody really cared for the f** in school."

"But Irene and Mae-Li?"

"Mae-Li and Ren were still in Middle School. I was just sixteen." Chan grabs Sammy's hand and mumbles, "You don't have to tell me the whole story. I understand."

"Thank you."

"You never mentioned this during the Docu series."

"Because I was still trying to tell myself that in never existed."

"All of these hardships made you the person you are today despite how terrible it all was. Y-you have no idea how scared I was during January. If you'd be ok or if you give up fighting. I didn't want to loose you. I couldn't live with myself knowing you had-" Chan cuts himself off to stop the sob that threatened to spill past his lips. Sammy looks up at him and almost says, "I love you Chan I'd never leave you." Instead he says, "Jonghyun-Hyung would want me to fight and spread awareness. I didn't realize that then. IU-Sunbae even told me how she thought the same thing."