Damien Haas Imagines

between our maybes

"Hey babe" he answered his phone.

I kept my lips tightly sealed, making sure not to make any noises.

"Bye. I love you." He hung up the phone and reverted his attention to me.

I sighed deeply, it was from the bottom of my heart.

"Why? What is it?" He looked at me.

I continued to circle my finger on his chest as I lay my head on his shoulder.

"Don't you feel guilty?" I asked
"Are you?"
"Sometimes."

He caressed my cheek, "let's not think of the days ahead."

Then placing a kiss on my nose.

I admit that we enjoy each other's company but we can't live like this forever, hiding behind closed doors.

I've always asked myself the consequences that are facing us every day. Cheating on my fiancé and Damien telling his girlfriend that there is no one else but her. We know it's wrong but can you blame us if what we really feel for each other is sincere?

"So did he call today?" He asked me.

I shook my head, "he's probably busy working and saving for our future."

"Hey. I love you." He suddenly said.

Never have I heard him say that except to his girlfriend. But, I had doubts. He can lie easily to her, how hard it will be to lie to me?

"That's nice." I moved my head from his chest to the pillow and closed my eyes.

He leaned onto me, putting his chin on my shoulder, "do you not feel the same way?"

"Let's just go to sleep," I said, pulling the blanket.

Honestly, I don't want to say something that will hurt him in the future. Part of me, always knew that we wouldn't end up together forever.

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At work, we would act like we don't sleep side by side. Join conversations and make jokes while maintaining our distance.

As I was reading the new script, my phone rang.

"Hey," I answered the face time.
"How are you, beauty?"

I asked him about what's happening to him in New Zealand and it always ends with him saying, "come here and live with me." I would always decline but I don't let him feel like he is not my priority. It's just I don't want to leave my career behind; and maybe Damien.

"You guys are couple goals," Courtney said as I ended the call.
"He always makes you smile." she sat down beside me.

"Well, it's not always smiles and giggles."
"It must be hard to fight when you're miles away from each other. Good thing you guys are loyal."

I guess you can say that I am loyal — to two guys.

"How about you, Damien?" Olivia asked
Damien who is silently reading his script turned his head all confused, "what about me?"

"How's your girlfriend in Australia?"
"She's okay. We're fine." He answered shortly.

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After work, we're back to our routine; stay in my apartment and watch a movie or cuddle, sometimes both.

As I was making the popcorn, he spoke out words that I never thought he would say.

"She's coming to LA this week."

I don't know what to say and feel. Should I say, "That's nice. She's gonna know about our relationship now." but I didn't instead I looked at the white tiles below and have second thoughts before this can turn into a fiasco.