Where Are You Now?

What Kind Of Love Is This?

Chapter 32

Michelle's P.O.V

I rush to school knowing that I'm late since I forgot to set my alarm last night and gratefully my mother was still at home to wake me up and drive me to school.

As soon as I enter the school building I find Chloe in the front corridor. "Hey." I cheerfully greet her." You haven't even told me who Robert is." She immediately says and I laugh at her reaction but it soon fades once I see him with Sasha. I blink rapidly hoping this isn't happening but the vision in front of me doesn't fade.

"Here we go again." I say to myself smiling at the epic scene in front of me knowing he would never stop hurting me neither change. I know I can't change him but that was never my intention.

I loved him, loved all of his flaws and accepted him for him but I never thought I would be the one who he wants to hurt.

"Hello, back to earth." Chloe says and I look back at her. "Is everything okay?" She asks and I nod forcing a smile. "So Robert?" She brings back the subject.

"Yeah , he's... he's just a friend. I don't even know if we are friends or not but he's okay." I explain to her and look back at him to find him talking to Zack and watch the smirk on Sasha's face.

"He seems really good plus he's handsome." Chloe tells me and I look back at her." Yeah, I guess." I say not knowing what else to say now that I'm shattered into a thousand pieces.

"Are you sure you're okay?" Chloe asks eyeing me carefully. "Yeah, I'm okay really." I lie smiling and great fully the bell rings saving me from pretending one more second.

"I'll see you later." She tells me and I wave her goodbye.

Do you know how it feels like when you shatter into pieces just because you saw something you never expected to see even in your nightmares? Your legs start shaking, your heart beat becomes faster as if your heart is going to pop out of your body and your eyes become watery. Everything becomes slow motion and it feels like the walls are just crashing on you and the worst part is no one can see that.

That's how I'm feeling right now everything seems like slow motion now that I'm watching everyone leaving the corridor including him and it feels like the walls suddenly are coming down on me and I can't do anything to stop them.

"I'm too weak to go through any of this." I say to myself trying not to cry.

Why and how did I get here? I ask myself looking at the ground before finally being able to walk.

I walk to the front door now that the corridors are empty and dial my mother's number. If I tell her I'm not feeling okay I'm sure she will come and take me back home. Maybe I could finally breathe there instead of here around him.

"Hey." I say cracking at the end and I bring my hand to my mouth stopping myself from crying." Michelle is everything okay?" She immediately asks and I take a deep breath before answering her. "Yeah, can you take me back home?" I ask her hopping she'd agree and not ask me any questions.

"I can't right now. But I know someone can." She tells me cheerfully and I turn to see Zack behind me. "Yeah okay. Anyone just please." I beg her wiping my tears away." Okay." She agrees and hangs up the phone.

"Are you okay?" He asks me taking a step closer." Yeah, I'm fine." I answer him with a smile full of pain.

"I d .... I really don't know what to say." He says looking at the ground. "Why... why did he...?" I start but he interrupts by answering immediately. "He still loves you, you know that right?" He asks raising his eyebrows.