Where Are You Now?

Her Love Is Painful

Chapter 33

Josh's P.O.V

I'm waiting here just for her hoping she'd show up. I know any minute now she will come in and scream at me for what I've done to her.

You don't deserve her.

I hear Zack's voice in my head screaming at me. He's right, I keep telling myself hoping she'd listen to me now when I tell her that too.

The door finally opens and she comes in without turning on the lights. There's nothing lightning the room other than the street lights and she stops once she sees me hoping I didn't scare her.

"Don't panic. It's me." I tell her getting closer to where she is standing. "What are you doing here?" She softly asks looking fragile.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. I just couldn't take the idea of seeing you with someone else." I selfishly tell her knowing this isn't the reason I came here. But before I could say anything else I feel her crying.

"What's wrong?" I ask lifting her chin up forcing her to look at me just to see her eyes full of tears.

What did I do to her?

"Josh, I kissed him. I kissed Robert." She says and I could feel my heart sinking.

"I'm letting you go Josh. I'm done. I have no idea why you kissed her and that hurts so bad. But now I'm done. Please let me go." She begs sobbing without looking at me.

"What did he do to you?" I ask her and she softly shakes her head.

"Stop avoiding me." I yell angrily lifting her chin up forcing her to face me. "Just let me go." She begs looking at me.

And right now, I want to hold her, tell her everything will be okay in the end. No matter how much this hurts, we will only grow stronger. We will be okay and that love can't kill us but I can't.

"I'm tired of seeing you like this just because of me. I'm letting you go, if he makes you happy, I'm happy too." I softly whisper hoping she wouldn't just let me go but instead she nods in agreement.

"Please." She begs sobbing looking directly at me.

And this is painful, her love is painful.