“Maybe it goes from “I’ll wait up and call you after work,” to “I’m going to sleep, I’m tired.” Maybe it goes from “You have nothing to worry about,” to “I really wish you didn’t overthink so much.” Maybe it goes from “I choose you,” to “I have to choose myself right now.”
Maybe love changes.
It’s like that sweater you always loved growing up, or your childhood bed. You learn to appreciate it for what it was, but you come to terms with the fact that you have outgrown it. You learn to let it go.
And maybe letting go of love isn’t some loud celebration at the end of a dark tunnel. Maybe letting go is the moment you decide that you can no longer keep the past alive inside of you.
Maybe walking away is the best thing you can do for yourself, and for the person you love with the fact that sometimes things and people and happiness change.
Maybe it is the bravest thing you can do. Maybe, when you walk away, you’re not making the biggest mistake of your life. Maybe, when you walk away, your life is just beginning.”
— rainbowsalt
R A H M A
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Kak Pandu mengantar gue kembali ke rumah Ajun, katanya gak mungkin ajak gue balik semnetara dia ke sini satu mobil sama Mas Dean.
“Ra, maaf ya.”
“Gak, Kak. Nanti aku bisa pesen taksi,” tukas gue meyakinkan supaya Kak Pandu gak terus-terusan merasa gak enak.
“Kalo misalnya nanti Kakak chat kamu lagi, boleh? Gak buat macem-macem kok beneran!” Kedua jari Kak Pandu membentuk tanda peace, raut mukanya juga serius banget waktu ngomong. Gue tersenyum, “Iya, boleh, Kak. Nanti pulang dari sini aku chat Kak Pandu.”
“Hah? Oh, oke. Aku balik dulu ya?”
“Iya.”
“Sampai nanti, Ra.”
“Hati-hati di jalan ya, Kak.”
“Siap!”
Kak Pandu balik badan dan bergegas keluar gerbang. Gue gak mengawasinya sampai pergi, karena takut harus beradu pandang dengan Mas Dean. Hati gue masih belum siap.
Jadi, gue memutuskan menguatkan diri dan membuang rasa malu untuk kembali masuk ke dalam. Astaga, entah Ajun dan teman-temannya bakal berpikir apa tentang gue. Niat awal gue ke sini kan bukan ribut kaya tadi, gue mau melayat.
Belum juga beberapa langkah lewat dari gerbang, sebuah suara menginterupsi sehingga gue berhenti melangkah.
