jailbirds, taejin

t w e n t y - t w o

kim taehyung;

his face glistened under the moonlight as he pondered over his literature book. i held my literature book in front of my face attempting to read the book, quickly distracted by the boy in the bunk below. i close the book and slowly climb down the bed. i glance at him, just for a moment, and then lock myself in the washroom. i empty my stomach, once again, into the toilet with a groan. it's been this way since monday. i am unable to digest my food. i do have a weak stomach. i recall  not being able to keep my food down as a little child. it was worse when i was low or anxious. i wash my face hoping it would help me stay awake and unlock the door. i approach my bed slowly but unable to walk i collapsed on to the ground.   

"he has been unable to digest his food for the past three days", a voice muffled. "he would be alright. we will administer some medicines. please make sure that he doesn't refute his meals but also make sure that he doesn't eat excessively. i will contact his family for further details if required", another voice spoke scratching a paper with a pencil. "alright", the first voice replied feebly and a pair of footsteps trailed away. "i should have been more careful. i should have told  the nurse about you condition before. i am sorry taehyung. it is because of me that your health deteriorated to this extent. i hope you forgive and please take more care of yourself," seokjin whispered gently. 

i smile at the words. he did care about me. i reached out and held his hand my eyes still closed and my body still relaxed. "you look very peaceful taehyung-ah. i haven't seen you this calm in four days. it is painful that i am the reason your naughty smile is replaced with a serious glare. i apologize for that too. i shouldn't have pulled you this close to me. and because i did i shouldn't have pushed you away. but if i kissed you back that i would not be able to set my mind at peace. i know you are not entirely responsible for that unfortunate event but it is not possible for my heart to completely forgive you. i do not want to make a decision that i will regret." seokjin continued to speak to himself. i breathe normally without moving not willing to interrupt his natural flow of thought. "just sixteen more days and then we wouldn't be a part of each other's lives. hopefully only the good memories will remain" he spoke and slowly slipped his hands away from my grip. i wanted to grip his hand again and pull him close but today i decided to let go. 

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author;

thank you to everyone who was patient. i am done with my examinations. so hopefully i will be able to update more frequently. i hope this chapter was alright. i will try my best to get better update soon. thank you again. 

stay healthy and happy :)