jailbirds, taejin

t h i r t y

kim taehyung;

it is a sunday morning and i am sitting next to park jimin. "you don't look very healthy", the boy spoke with concern laced in his voice. "i have been worse", i spoke, "well- you didn't come to visit me last week. you better have a good excuse", i complain. "right, about that. i am really sorry. i had this dance practice and-", jimin spoke , heat rising to his cheeks. "and-", i prompt, "and my team mate was a little slow so i had to stay and help her", he disclosed, his eyes fixed on his hands which were clasped together. "and i am guessing there was no one else willing to help her because park jimin thought it was more important to practice with his girl than come meet his girlfriend", i speak, not angry at jimin just amused. jimin smiled shyly moving his hands through his hair, "i am sorry taehyung". i erupt into laughter, "it is alright buddy, i get it. but when you figure out how the whole love scenario is, you promise to help me", i chime. he extend his pinky finger which was considerably small compare to mine and we link them together, "promise".

our time is over and i hug jimin before i walk back to the common room while i wait for my brother namjoon to arrive. every sunday, i have been excited to meet my brother but today i am nervous. today didn't really begin on a good note. seokjin was ignoring me once again. i do not understand why every time i attempt to move a step closer seokjin moves four steps away. i tap my knees nervously as i wait for my name to be called.

i immediately hear my name and walk towards the room. my older brother kim namjoon watched me as i stumbled to the chair. "taehyung-ah, i heard you were sick. it is him, isn't it. seokjin, he is jungkook's brother isn't he", namjoon spoke softly. i bite my lips and allow the tears to escape. namjoon stands up and walks over to me placing his arms around my shoulders. i hide my face in his clothes holding his waist tightly. "i am sorry", namjoon speaks. "don't be- it isn't your fault", i manage to croak. "taehyung-ah, you are a strong boy. please take care of your self. i am sure you love him but no one is as important as you", namjoon mutters. "i am trying. i really am", i mutter. we stay there for some time before the time is over. 

i smile as i watch him disappear and i move out of the back to the room. i look at seokjin who was writing something in a small notebook. i notice that he was using his left hand. he did listen to me. i scurry to my bed hiding my face inside the pillow. i have been very strong. i can be strong. i look at seokjin again. his eyes were red and swollen. i am strong. but i don't have to  endure the pain if i can fight the pain. i muster all the courage i have and walk to seokjin. i place the book in his hands away and push my lips against his. this time he doesn't resist.

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author;

this chapter is all over the place but there will be an actual kiss next chapter so please don't beat me up ><

also this entire dynamite thing has me really excited. it is kinda- my first comeback so i am really hype!! i hope you are too :)

stay healthy and happy my friends!!