jailbirds, taejin

t w e n t y - s i x

kim seokjin;

i fixed my gaze on taehyung. he was sleeping peacefully. his face calm and beautiful. i lookt at the small paper the nurse gave to me yesterday. average food consumption. check. no throwing up. check. no dizziness. check. body temperature. shit- i didn't remember to record his body temperature. i chew on my lower lip nervously. it would not be nice to wake him up. the poor boy does deserve rest. it is my fault he is sick in the first place. the nurse did say it was necessary to record his temperature though. i should have remembered. i fetch for the thermometer which was placed on the table and walk to taehyung. i hold my breath and place the thermometer in his ear. i patiently stare at the boy until i realize something. shit- before i pull the thermometer out of taehyung's ear the thermometer rings loudly. i close my eyes cursing under my breath. you stupid piece of shit jinnie. couldn't you think faster. "seokjin, are you okay", a deep and sleepy voice asked. i looked at taehyung rubbing his eyes as he tried to sit up. "uh- yeah- yes i am alright. i am sorry i didn't mean to startle you like that. i just wanted to record your temperature but i didn't realize that the thermometer would ring loudly and it would wake you up.", i spoke quickly. "i don't know if i understood what you just said. you speak too fast but is there anything you need", he asked opening his mouth wide and covering it with his palm. his eyes squeezed to narrow slits as he yawned. "right. can i record your temperature. i need to fill it in", i speak at a normal pace. he nodded and grabbed the thermometer from my hand and placed it in his ear. the thermometer beeped soon after. he took the thermometer and gave it back to me before sleeping.

i glanced at the digits on the thermometer. he is hot. i mean, his body temperature is really high. i record it. "taehyung, are you already asleep", i ask softly. i assume he is because i hear no nose except taehyung's soft breathing. i can not administer him a medice without waking him up and i really do not want to wake him up. i decide to work on my essay and just keep a watch on taehyung. it isn't because i care about him. i don't.  i am just taking care because it is because of me he is in such a vulnerable position. the nurse informed me this morning that taehyung has a weak stomach and sudden emotion changes can make him lose his appetite. 

i pick my essay and scan through it. there were a few corrections that were made in pencil and there was a reference attached to help me with a particular paragraph that i really couldn't write. i look at taehyung and then at the essay. he really did this for me. why. why is it that every time i move a step away from him he draws me fours steps closer. why is it so hard to just not think about him. why does he cloud my every thought. why do i care about him. i place the essay back on the table and walk to the wash room. i wash my face with water as i try to inhale and exhale. i walk out of the washroom to hear the boy murmuring, "seokjinnie, please stay with me tonight"

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author;

hello everyone. i am sorry for the delayed update. i know i promised frequent updates but this was so delayed. i just couldn't push my self to write this one. i promise i will try harder. i hope this chapter was nice. i really like writing seokjin's point of view. i do it once in a while but i think it is always nice and different. 

stay healthy hydrated and happy!!