Parted Ways

CHAPTER SIX

Agad kong binawi ang kamay ko sa pagkakahawak niya at aamba nang umalis nang magsalita siyang muli.

He pulled me back and I bumped in to his chest. May mas ilalapit pa pala kaming dalawa.

"Hey," he said while trying to catch my attention. "Look at me."

He held my chin so that I could face him, when he successfully made me look at him, he spoke again.

"I'm sorry, Solhera."

So this is how it feels when the person you like is sorry about you. But why is he sorry by the way?

Nilabanan ko ang malalim niyang mga titig. "So, why are you sorry?"

"I'm sorry... I can't give you back the same feelings you have for me."

What the hell?

My lips parted in shock. I didn't see this coming. Kailangan ba talaga niyang ipamukha sa akin na kahit kailan hindi niya ako magugustuhan? Na kahit anong gawin ko ay wala siyang pakialam? I guess it's the sign. I should really stop liking him. He kept on causing me pain and problems. On the other side, kung hindi ko rin naman ipinagpipilitan ang sarili ko, hindi ko naman mararanasan ang lahat ng ito eh. Frankly speaking, it's my fault. There's no reason to blame him.

"Oh is that so." only words that came out from my mouth.

Kinalas ko na ang pagkakawak niya sa akin. Is this the real score time gave us? Hanggang dito na lang ba talaga kami?

Nagmamadali akong umalis at hindi na lumingon pang muli.

I went back to our table only to see Samuel talking with my parents.

I felt an ushed tears on the side of my eyes.

"Mr. and Mrs. Abiera, can I have uh some time with your daughter?" my parents just gave him a nod.

Tumayo kami at ngumiti bago umalis.

"Let's go." he whispered before we headed to their garden.

I immediately sat when we arrived, it feels peaceful here. 'Yung parang gusto mo nalang na dito manatili kaysa harapin ang mga problema mo.

I looked up and tried to catch Luna. She gives me hope everytime I feel down. Mas gusto ko ang gabi. The moon reminds me that no matter how dark your life is, you'll still shine.

It's funny because I was named Solhera, Queen of the Sun, yet I'm not fond of it. Day slaps me with the truth and it pushes me to face the reality.

"Here." I saw a folded handkerchief being offered to me.

Hindi ko namalayan umiiyak nanaman pala ako.

He sat beside me. He handed me his handkerchief because maybe he felt that I don't have any plans of using it.

"Cry all you want, kung gusto mo I can drive you home para hindi ka na mahalata ng mga magulang mo?" buti pa itong kaibigan niya thoughtful.

"What is it all about?"

"Do you want us to talk about it?"

After a long silence,

"Okay, maybe you don't want to talk about i-" I cut him off.

"Hey, Samuel." and then I faced him. "I will share it with you but please promise me that this would stay between us two."

"I promise." he said while raising his right hand.

I let out a big sigh before speaking.
"Have you been rejected?" he startled.

I just laughed with his reaction.

"Have you wasted your time for something yet you didn't got anything from it?" I said smiling while tears flowing through my cheeks.

I'm afraid to share my problems to anyone. I have so much insecurities in life. What if's kept on ruining my mind. What if I shared my problems to them and then they would only judge me? Alam ko kasi na sobrang liliit lang naman ng mga prinoproblema ko kumpara sa ibang tao. Wala eh, kung para sa iba maliit na bagay lang, pwedeng sa akin hindi. We all have different levels of sensitivity.

"Are you sure you still want to hear my rants?" baka kasi mamaya isa rin siya sa mga taong hindi makakaintindi sakin.

"Sino ba ako para tumanggi?" I stared at him.

"I wasted my time, I don't know if it is worth it kasi wala namang naidulot na maganda. It just caused me pain, literally." I looked down, nakakahiya na.

"There's nothing wrong with that. Wasting your time is like taking a risk, minsan maganda yung kalalabasan, minsan naman the other way around."

Risk. Exactly, I took a risk.

"I took a risk only for myself, I didn't thought about the people around me." I said and looked at him again.

He smiled a bit.

"Count it as your experience, it's how you learn."

"Have you ever took a risk?" I asked.

"Yes, but last time I took a risk I failed," my lips formed into an 'o'. "Pero hindi ako pinanghinaan ng loob."

You're tough then, huh?

"Because if you really want it, you'll endlessly take risks. Kahit makuha mo na ang bagay na 'yon, there are still untold risks around you. Time and change is really constant, we don't know what tomorrow may bring."

I owe this man my sanity for tonight.

I leaned towards him to wipe off the tears that escaped the side of his eyes.
He blushed after that. I don't know how to react so I just turned my gaze to the other side.

A man with his dark aura, clenching fists, and his dagger like eyes screams betrayal.

Naramdaman ko ang pagsunod ng tingin ng lalaking katabi ko.

"Cade-" before Samuel could even finish his sentence, he left.