Drowning In Fear // Shawn Mendes

Chapter 20

Karina POV

"I'm sorry Shawn" I frowned

He just looked at me no reaction, he had hurt yet relive in his eyes. Shawn moved and sat down on the bed next to me.

"What happens now" he asked me

"I don't know, I always tell zack when he likes two guys at once that if he likes the second guy then it was never real with the first one, maybe I should take my own advice"

"And what would that be" he says with a glimmer of hope

"Go home Shawn I will call you tomorrow" I inform him as I put my hand on his back

"But I-"

"Shawn it's all going to work out I just need to figure everything out"

"Ok bye" he says getting up

"Wait!" I shrieked

I jumped up and kissed him. We never really did break up, I felt butterfly's when I kissed him but not like what I felt with Cameron. I pulled away from the kiss.

"Bye" and close my bedroom door

I heard Shawn's car leave but then I get a text from Cameron

Cam: hey are you up for some company?

Me: sure

"Good because it was getting cold outside" I turn to see Cameron in the doorway of my room and jumping onto my bed with in-n-out

"What? When did you get here! How long have you been here?" I start to blabber on

"I brought over food for you but I saw Shawn's car so I stayed in the yard till he left and your mom let me in, she was acting weird"

"Yeah I told her what happened with us, she actually came through for me this time" I say with a smile

"That's great" cam slurred while stuffing his face with fries

As we ate our fries it was quiet, but of course cam had to ask what Shawn was doing here

"Why was Shawn here again?" He said trying to ease in on what we had been talking about before he arrived

"Well we were talking about what happened between you and me, that I need to think about everything and what I want, I told him to go home and I would tell him tomorrow"

"So what do you want?"

"I don't even know to be honest; I didn't even know I had options."

"Do you want to know what I can offer you?"

"What do-?"

He interrupts me with his lips on mine. Once I pull away I didn't know what I felt.

"How about that" cam responds

"What are my options" I say with a smirk

"Well you can date me again and I can show you what you have been missing all these years or you can go back to Shawn and forget all about this and me" he explained to me

"Wait why forget you"

"Cause when you choose Shawn do you really think I should be a part of that it might happen again, Shawn would never trust us together"

I just start at him thinking

"I'll give you some time" he says pushing the in-n-out bag towards me and getting up.

I just sit there and he leaves. I heard the front door close, when I realize something. I get out and sprint downstairs to cam. As he is walking out the front door I yell to him.