Drowning In Fear // Shawn Mendes

Chapter 11

Karina POV
I didn't beileve him one bit.

After all no one really knows our relationship except for us we never really advertised our relationship. We had great moments toghter just where we would be happy to hold each other in our arms, but we had the days we would look at each other In discussed and just fight.

When cameron got drunk that one party and tried to rape me, it just wasn't the same after seeing him like that I couldn't look at him the same way.

"No you don't you just hate seeing me happy" I said and ripped my wrist away from him and went back outside.

I sat down next to shawn and he pulled me down to lay with him.

But cameron never came back outside.

Around 7 everyone went home.

Shawn took me home, he invited me to stay over but I didn't want to after the encounter with cam.

When we pulled up to my house I gave Shawn a quick kiss.

"Bye I'll text you when I wake up tomorrow" I said getting out of the car.

"Bye" shawn said as he pulled out if my driveway

I ran up to my room not bothering to see if my mom was home or even awake.

I changed Into pjs and jumped in bed. I just wanted sleep.

Cameron POV
"no you dont you just hate seeing me happy" karina said as she ripped her hand away from my hand.

the truth is i really did miss her, ive wanted to tell her that for a long time but i couldnt tell her that. people like me dont just say that let alone social media stars, like me. only happends in movies.

I was so frustrated and I wasn't about to go back outside to be confronted by her 'group' so I stayed inside the rest of the night.

I was having a really hard time was watching the girl I love, love someone else and I admit I was jealous I just couldn't control myself. I wanted to punch shawn when I saw him kissing Karina like I use to.

Maybe Karina would be nicer if she admitted she needed help for her cutting.

I strongly debated for the rest of the night whether to Matt and nash about her past with self harm, they were her best friends and maddie was no help.

if i tell the guys karina will never forgive me. maybe i could just hint it to them?

without thinking i went on my phone and put Nash and Matt in a group conversaton with me i decided to block my number so they coulnt blame me.

'im a friend of you and karina, im very concerned about karina and the way she has been acting and treating herself and her body. i cant get through to her can you?'

and sent that. with in minutes i got a responce from both of them.

nash: who is this?

matt: why what is she doing?

blocked(cam): i wont say what but its bad

nash:dont leak our #'s

blocked(cam): stop im your friend just if it gets out what karina does i dont want her getting pissed at me!

matt: we want to help her

nash: yeah, how can we help her if we dont know what is going on?

matt: yeah?

blocked(cam):just you know why she wouldnt take her shorts off and go swimmimg? she is hidding something, she had a complicated life before shawn.

matt: you were at the pool party?