Drowning In Fear // Shawn Mendes

Chapter 5

Karina's POV
They all stopped and looked at me. Great

"Karina?" Shawn said probably thinking I was a total stalker right now. But I really just felt like cutting. That's what I do to make the pain go away but my mom was home so that would have to wait.

"Uh hey" I say uneasy

I looked at cam because I know he told them about this place. I wonder if ever occurred to him that this was still my special place I go here when I don't feel well or in the right place usual I come here after I cut to just look out at the city.

"Did you follow us or something" shawn said with a nervous laugh as all the boys still stared at me.

" no!" I said to make sure they didn't think that. "I come here a lot when I'm uhh..." I stalled not wanting to say when I have a bad day or something. "Having a Bad day and stuff I came here a lot during freshman year"
As I looked at cam he seemed kinda down. The boys finally went back to the photo-shoot but cam still started at me. I was gonna talk to him!

"Well what's wrong" Shawn said

"I don't feel like talking about it"

"Oh ok" there was an awkward silence

"I don't want to barge in I'm just gonna go"

"No this was your place first!"

"Nah it's ok"
I started to get up

"Please stay" he said grabbing my arm

"Fine" I said smiling

Cameron made a coughing noise I could tell was fake.

"I'll be right back" I said to Shawn walking over to cam

"What's your problem" I said kinda mad

Cam pulled me aside away from everyone.

"Why are you here huh!"

"Well I come here whenever I'm feeling down like I said this place calms me. Besides I found it for us when we were dating. Actually why are you here?!"

"I'm here with MY FAMOUS friends. Also I come here a lot too this isn't just our little secert hid out anymore" cam said furious

I started to tear up but I wouldn't let him see

"I wouldn't be yelling because I'm guessing you haven't told your friends about "us" or what happend"

"Would you let this go already I've moved on you should too"

"How couldn't you say that you were my everything" I said sarcastically "no but seriously cam get over yourself. You know I have a complicated life why do you have to make things harder for me?!"

"OH I MAKE THIS HARD ON YOU OK!!"
He said raising his voice "You did this to yourself"

"Hey you guys ok back there" Bryant said because I think everyone could hear cam at this point

"Yeah we are fine" I said choking back tears

We just stared at each other for a second until tears came down my face and I couldn't look at him anymore

I just ran back to my car. When I turned around cam had his hands on his head with his eyes closed. His shirt lifted enough to where I could see his v line. It looked like he was broken yet frustrated. He is so confusing that's why we broke up. We'll one of the reasons but that's what I tell people.

I just sat in my car with music playing for a few minutes until there was a knock on the window that made me jump a little. It was Shawn. I rolled down the window and Shawn put his arms on the edge.