Beyond The Broken Glass3: Finally Mended [complete]

18.) Bonus Chapter: In hindsight

I got a call from Drew letting me know that Bri and the kids were safe and that they were settling in nicely. I breathed a sigh of relief because right after I got off the phone with Drew I got a text from Bri telling me that she loved me deeply. I know she did. It may not seem like it but I know she loves me and I love her all the same. I just love her the best way I know how. And that's to protect her. From any and everything that could hurt her.

I may seem like a mad man for not only allowing her to leave my side but take my kids with her. Even though I knew she was safe where she was my mind was still on edge. It still drove me a little crazy. After we promised never to separate again we did just that.

I don't know where to go with my plan now but I know I gotta start somewhere. I guess now I had to find Ralph and once I find him I get the actual ball rolling. Truth be told I didn't even know where to begin to find that nigga.

He plays hide and seek so well that even his own son can't find him. He only knows that he's somewhere not too far from the states. Ralph owns so many properties on so many islands that it would be impossible to just search a few and get lucky.

I sighed as I sat alone in a house that was once full but now empty. I laid back on the sofa and tried to just think of something that could help me. But I came up short every time.

Maybe I could go back to the manor and look again through the mess. Maybe it's something there that can at least tell me where he went.

~Meanwhile~

I watched as the waters slapped against the shores. The sun began to set leaving the sky a burnt orange as it settled in its bed for the night.

The sound of birds soaring through the skies filled my ears. The smell of the salty waters kissed my nose. This was supposed to be my healing place. Yet I could not heal.

My mind was forever occupied. Burdened even, with the thought of my mission being unfulfilled. It was my duty to make sure that Brandon was well off in life. As his Godfather I promised on my life that he would never know danger. But it seems as if I have dropped the ball.

"Sir?" Her sweet voice sang out to me. "Would you like me to bring you another drink?"

"No, no Miranda. I've consumed enough alcohol tonight."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes, I am sure," I told her as I continued to look out over the edge. "Meet me in my chambers undressed," I commanded her.

"Yes sir."

I sighed as I took in the views of beautiful Antigua. I began to unbutton my shirt and trailed my way to my chambers to find my maid, Miranda laying on my bed, her clothing on the floor.

"I'm ready sir." She murmured as the candles that were now lit illuminated the room and gave me a sensual visual of her nakedness.

In the time that I've been away. I've filled my time with alcohol, cigars, and sex. All to ease the pain. Each woman looked the same to me, though they didn't bear the same face. To me, they were all Chloe. Her beautiful melanated skin, her wide hips, and her big brown eyes. I just wanted her back, but I could never have my love back.

She was buried in what she wanted to be our final resting place. One of my private places in St. Tropez. That was where we planned to start our lives together. In hindsight, we should have left sooner. I should have ditched Rosa but she had a way of making me stay. I was so blinded by her beauty that I couldn't see that she was my poison.

Now my true love is gone and I'm forced to lay with women who aren't her. But I force them to be. I make them resemble her. In my mind, I plaster her all over them. That's how badly I wanted her. I tattooed her name in ink broadly across my back and all of them knew to never let her name leave their lips, they all knew to not question the sentiment.

For as long as my heart was beating I promise not to break any more promises.

I absentmindedly crawled between her legs. My pants were undone as I prepared to take her. Her nails dug deeply into my back as I penetrated her. Her muffled moans filled the air as I filled her body and she filled my void.

In the morning I'll be gone and she'll linger here, wondering why I didn't care enough to take her with me. But for now, I had one objective and that was to climax and relieve my anguish of never having the opportunity to take Chloe as I did before in so many secret rendezvous.