The Lost Helianthus (COMPLETED)

Chapter Nine

I silently went inside the room. Medyo nahuli ako hindi katulad nang mga nauna kong pagpasok kaya pagkarating ko ay medyo marami na ang tao sa loob.

It was not that surprising when I step inside the room, my eyes instantly flew to Alek's. What was surprising was that, nagkasalubong agad ang tingin naming dalawa.

I stilled for a second but decided to walk in straight to my seat.

Naputol sandali ang eye contact namin nang ibaba ko ang bag ko. Ngunit nang inaangat ko ang tingin ulit sa kanya at nasa akin pa rin ang atensyon niya.

I looked away and talked to the girl seated next to me. I tried to remain unaffected as I asked for her notes she written that I missed yesterday when I was absent.

Nawala rin naman siya bigla sa isip ko nang kopyahin ko na ang lahat ng ibigay niya sa akin.

Akala ko makakawala na ako sa kanya pero pagkatapos ng pangalawang period ay lumapit na siya sa akin na dala ang mga libro niya.

I sighed. I will absolutely forget about the quiz bee if Alek didn't show up here with his bundle of books.

Before he could even mutter a single word, I raised my hand to stop him.

Kinuha ko ang mga libro at sinenyasan siyang kumilos na palabas ng kuwarto. We sashayed to the hallway in silence.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit ambagal nang paghakbang niya kaya binagalan ko na rin. Ayaw ko namang mapahiya siya kahit na gusto ko nang magreklamo. Seriously, he's as good as an astronaut straddling into the moon's surface because of his walking pace.

It surprised me that I am still sticking with him. I don't know why I am suddenly nice to him.

It took him three minutes before he broke the silence.

"Are you mad at me and decided not to go to class yesterday because I declined your offer of friendship?"

I stopped on my tracks and face him, my face was red in rage. My eyes turned into slits when I looked at him but it softened when I saw him innocently looking at me.

But still, how dare he. "Hindi. You are not that important to make it a big deal. We have the right to accept or decline what someone has to offer so I'm not angry. And how dare you think that I was absent yesterday because of you? May check up kahapon at may lab tests kaya hindi ako nakapasok."

Totoo lahat ng sinabi ko. Every three months ay may check up ako sa endo ko at nagkataon na may pasok kahapon. I also got my eyes checked and I'm grateful that it was not inflicted with DM retinopathy. Even my lab tests results are normal.

Although I wanted to tell him the truth that I'm really upset. He didn't want to be friends with me.  What's wrong with him?

He should be pleasured that I even considered making him my friend. Once in a lifetime lang iyon mangyari dahil aloof ako sa karamihan, na tinanggihan naman niya.

Sinira niya ang plano ko.

Now I'm back to square one thinking of ways how to make my feelings for him vanish.

I have come up wih this plan na once na nakipagkaibigan ako sa kanya, magkakaroon ng border sa pagitan namin dahil maiisip ko kung anong importante. Friendship versus my feelings for him. Of course, I know in my heart that I will still choose friendship over all those things. Mapipilitan akong burahin ang nararamdaman ko sa kanya at magiging normal na ulit ajg lahat.

Na hindi nga nangyari dahil ang kapal ng mukha niyang tumanggi sa offer ko.

Now I don't have any choice but to distance myself because I don't want this current feeling to be deep. I only want it to be shallow.