The Lost Helianthus (COMPLETED)

Chapter Ten

The second week of review, we don't need to attend classes so we can focus more for the competition.

Pati ang mga ibang representative sa ibang grade level magmula elementary at highschool ay kasama na namin sa library. We were assigned with different instructors so they can guide us well.

Hindi lang ang quiz bee competition ang sinalihan ng school kundi pati na rin ang spelling bee. Puspusan na ang pagtra-train sa amin at hindi na pinapapasok muna ang ibang estudyante para sa amin. Bawat grade level ay may naka-assign na table para sa kanila para hindi madaling ma-distract.

And as the dreading day started to get near, I am also starting to be nervous. I don't know if we can win this competition, but there's a huge possibility that we will not. I heard a rumor that 43 schools will also be competing aside from us and from those schools, I know that half of it has the potential to win the three slots.

Baka hindi kami kasama roon. I know I should trust my school, okay. But I don't trust my capability. The only factor that drives me to win is pressure.

I am currently seated next to Alek. Kapwa kami abala sa pag-scan ng mga information sa ginawa naming notes. There's no time to lose. Thirty minutes na lang at babalik na sina Sir dito upang magtanong ulit.

Binabasa ko ang mga na-assign na subjects sa akin pati na rin ang sa kanya. Mahirap na may makaligtaan kaming isang information dahil sayang din ang puntos para doon. Puwera na lang ang Mathematics for solving. Hindi naman ako madamot kaya ibibigay ko na lang ng buong-buo sa kanya iyon.

The quiz bee competition I have joined before has three rounds: easy, average, and difficult. Ganoon din yata ang rubrics ng competition dahil kada nirereview kami ay puro identification at walang choices. Sa easy at average rounds kasi, may choices pa kaya medyo madali pa at kaya ming i-deduce ang mga choices kung saan doon ang pinakamalapit na sagot. Pero sa difficult round, wala. If hindi mo alam ang sagot, wala ka talagang mailalagay sa board. You have no clue and chance to make your answer right. The best way to answer is to review and prepare well for the competition.

I couldn't blame them if they want to train us rough. Mahirap din naman kasing makakuha ng place sa laban.

I know that I should focus more on the incoming event, but somehow, my brain was split up from reviewing and minding the view beside me. I badly want to spot a serious Alek who was intently gliding his eyes on the piece of paper on his hand but I can't. I'm afraid to be caught by him.

Besides, my priority should be acing and winning this competition. Which I think, is impossible to achieve pero puwede namang magbaka-sakali. Kahit hindi na manalo basta naitawid ko nang maayos ang mangyayari sa araw na iyon.

I don't wanna be embarrassed in front of this man if ever na puro mali ang sagot namin dahil sa akin.

I snapped my pencil in half when I realized what I was thinking. I gritted my teeth. Bakit sa lahat ng naiisip ko ay kasama pa rin siya sa plano?!

Having a crush from someone was troublesome. Hindi na ako natutuwa. It was just supposed to be me, then someone got to steal the spotlight and all my plans will be intended solely or revolving around them?

Hindi na talaga nakakatuwa.

I wanted to ask for someone's help on how to kill this affection, but I have no one to run into. Sure, my friends always ran to me whenever they want to share a secret because they deemed me as trustworthy, but can I do that to them in return? I'm afraid not. Sobrang daldal nila.

Kaya lang naman nila sinasabi sa akin ang mga iyon dahil tahimik lang ako at walang mapagsasabihan kanino man. I never chat anyone else but them. Kung sasabihin ko sa kanila ang nasa isip ko, hindi lang lima ang magbibigay ng advice. Maybe tens or hundreds.