Scared By Twilight

C~36: I Want To Try

It's day three, and I feel awful.

I didn't want to make Jasper feel bad, I just...I don't even know what I was thinking.

And for the next week, a storm would be coming, so Jasper went hunting today because we wouldn't be able to go outside, so I was left closing the curtains and the windows, keeping the place warm.

But keeping the place warm comes at a prince, you have to keep it hot, so I only wore shorts and a sports bra. So after cleaning and eating an early dinner, I had nothing left to do, so I lay down on the bed staring at the ceiling.

It was weird for the past couple of nights I've had the same dream.

"Se, joka kantaa kuumerkin, kantaa varkauden sydäntä." I whisper to myself.

What did it mean?

Where was it from?

Sitting up, I make my way over to the computer, opening google, and typing in my best spelling of what I've heard. Translate can't seem to find it, so it brings up searches that I can listen too.

The first one was a bust.

So were the next five.

Until one stuck out.

Se, joka kantaa kuumerkin, kantaa varkauden sydäntä.

Just like in my dream, clicking on it it takes me right to a translation. The langue was in Finnish, but I don't know Finnish!

Se, joka kantaa kuumerkin, kantaa varkauden sydäntä, that who bares the mark of the moon bares the heart of the thief.

Fuck what? My hand reaches up to my birthmark, bares the heart of the thief? I've stolen a few things but not that many! I was going insane; there's no way my dream had an actual translation, shutting the computer quickly. I run a hand through my hair.

"Nope, no way! Moon and thief, my ass! Calm down," I tell myself, I'm getting worked up over nothing! Or maybe I'm just bored without Jasper, only then my phone rings, and I pick it up, "Hey E!" three voices shout at once.

I smile, "Hayden! Peter! Tana! How are you guys?"

"Great! There's this great college program down in Texas where Tana lives!" exclaims Peter, oh so they were all going to college together. "You should join us, become a band permanently!" shouts Tana.

Moving down to Texas and becoming more than just a high school band. It sounded like so much fun, but I had the Cullen's to think about, but I didn't want to let my bandmates down either "Save a spot next semester and let me think about it."

"Hey, if this is about Jasper, long distance can work." starts Tana. I hear laughing. "Yeah, take it from the girl who stays up hours after curfew talking to Alice!" mocks Peter. I smirk, "Oh, did someone make an impression at the wedding?"

"We're just friends...with benefits." finishes Tana making me giggle. "Well, I'm glad you guys are happy."

"And we hope to see you soon, till then take care!"

"Will do!"

And they hand up, I stare at my phone. Move down to Texas! What was I thinking? And now I'm back to being bored!

Then I hear the door hit the wall, turning around I see Jasper standing in the doorway. He was panting heavily, making my brows furrow, I stand and walk over peering into Jasper's eyes. Sure they were golden brown, which meant he's fed, but as I stared, I don't understand why but they felt black.

"Jasper you fed right-"

He cuts me off by smashing his lips onto mine, I stumble back as he grips me tightly. Putting my hands on his chest, I push away slightly, Jasper's breath didn't slow as he stares at the ground "I'm in control." I hear him whisper.

Suddenly Jasper picks me up, and using his inhuman speed rushes us into the bedroom. He lays me on the bed, looming over me, his hands on either side of my waist, "Jasper, what's going on!"

"I want to try!" he shouts, not meeting my eyes, he wasn't making any sense, "Huh?"

"I felt terrible after last night because you gave me a chance and I screwed it up because I was scared of hurting you. But this whole day the thought struck, and I know that if I was hurting you would tell me, and this breaks every code I ever made in my early life-....point is I want to try!" he gets out.

I put a hand to my mouth gazing up at him, he had at his mercy, and he could have his way with me if he liked, but he's not that type of gentleman. He's admitting that he wants to try, but Jasper makes sure that he won't hurt me.

"Then, let's start by taking this off." I begin reaching for the hem of his shirt, but he grabs my hand, "You have to promise me, if I'm hurting you, you'll tell me."

Nodding, I answer, "I promise...oh, Jasper, I wish you could feel how I do." I speak honestly. Just then, Jasper zooms back against the wall holding his head. I sit up, concerned, "Jas?!"

He stares up, "You're worried, but you've got this other feeling, it's this overpowering sense of lust and love. It's so stronger, I never knew you felt this strongly."

I quirk my head to the side "You're able to feel my emotions? How?"

Jasper smirks, moving back over "I don't know, but it's like fuel to a fire." he describes, and in one blur his lips attack mine, I fight back a moan that rises in my throat pushing my body back against his.

Playing around with the hem of his shirt, Jasper breaks the kiss pulling it off completely, I see now the scars weren't just his arms. I run my hand over ever new one I discover, giving each the love and attention it deserves.

Jasper's kiss moves my lips to my birthmark, claiming every inch of it. His hands move down to my bra, and he rips it in half, I gasp as the hot temperature hits my skin and move my arms to cover my chest.

Biting my lip I never thought I would be shy about this type of thing, Jasper smiles and moves my hands leaning down to whisper in my ear "You don't have to hide darlin', don't you know...you're divine." he whispers using his distinctive word.

Divine.

It made me feel like some sort of diety, whimpering as Jasper kisses just bellow my ear he rustles "I always knew that word did something to you."

Growling Jasper trails the kisses down my neck earning a moan and then down to my chest where his hold became tighter, causing me to let out a yelp. Jasper stops "Eve?...what'd I do, I-"

"Shh, I'm fine." I began tangling my fingers in his hair, tugging back, Jasper's groans, and that look clearly his hunt hadn't satisfied him enough. He smirks, moving one hand down to my thigh and griping it, drawing the same reaction out of me.

"You're playing dirty," I smirk.

"Well, as a gentleman, I'm inclined to say the lady's always right."

Fluttering my eyelashes, I move one of my hands to cup his cheek, "Why don't you show me how right am I?"

Jasper smiles, "As you wish."