100 story challenge (Tom Hiddleston imagines) *edited*

Jump (Bill)

⚠A/N: Major warning there is attempted suicide, bullying, body insecurity and other things in this chapter. And I think before I start writing this it is going to be very intense, because at the moment my mental health is going a bit nuts, but I hope you enjoy all the same if you do read it.⚠

He's too cute for you to love him.

Why would he fall in love with you?

You're a failure. Nobody would want to employ you.

He's probably fucking someone else while he's away at uni.

You're disgusting to look at, that's why he wants to be so far away from you.

Just do it already... he'll probably thank you.

"Bill... I guess you're busy because you didn't pick up. Um- Well I suppose this is a goodbye-... I-I'm so- sorry Bill. I can't... do th-this any mo-more. Pl-please hel-help me. Th-th-the church. Nine, p.m. "

----time skip----

As you stand on the church roof, swaying with the breeze. You cry softly and try to count the stars. You don't want to look down... it seems all too real then.

You know you're not pretty...

He's probably dating you out of pity.

Even with the want, you still can't really face that this is your end. Soon after your boyfriend's parents moved to your hometown of Little Stempington, all the girls swooned because he was the 'baby boy that could melt your heart with one look.' Whereas you were the chubby girl who never deserved someone as handsome, loving, and charming as Bill.

The remarks you got were okay after a while. But now it was torture to be told what other people would do to Bill if you weren't slobbering over him with your thunder thighs and your muffin tops.

"Y/N!!" Bill screamed as he ran to the church.

You closed your eyes as he said your name. You loved how he used to say your name, but the pain he held now was unbearable for you and you tried to ignore it. You tried and failed.

"Y/n please... come down!"

You kept looking to the sky, hoping that he would give up, however also hoping that he wouldn't. You hear his feet tripping over each other as he runs into the church. You keep your eyes closed until you hear him on the roof.

"Don't- move," you mumble, just enough for him to hear.

"I won't, I won't just please I love you there's no one else but you, I love you y/n please don't do this." He stumbles over his words and makes small steps towards you. He was weak at the knees, so he held onto the wall for support.

You cry even harder at his words, "no- it's not th-that."

"Then talk to me... tell me what's wrong. You know I love you; you can talk to me. I'll listen, no judgement at all."

You still say nothing, just listen to the sounds of the night and the shuffling of Bill's shoes.

"Fine-" he says abruptly. He walks up next to you startling you just a little. He stands in the gap like you are holding onto the stone at his sides. You look at him confused and he looked back at you with tears in his eyes. "If you jump... then I'll jump with you."

"No," you remark bluntly. "I won't let you. You can't."

"I can't let you do this either," he takes your hand, but doesn't pull you away. He wants you to do this on your own.

You shake your head, crying even more and staring back out to count stars, "I tried to ignore them... the girls in the village. Especially the Diamond's girl, Jewel. She always tells me... I-" you stop.

"Y/n... please." He squeezes your hand just a bit.

"I don't deserve you. I'm disgusting- and- and you only date me out of pity. You'd thank me if I just jumped." You sway more as a gentle breeze brushes by you.

"Don't listen to her, them. I am the one who doesn't deserve you. You are so beautiful, you are my everything, and I don't know what I would do without you... You kill yourself. You kill me."

His words broke you like yours did to him. Tears kept pouring down both your faces as you both stare out into the infinite. Bill softened his grip on your hand as you rocked back and forth making your final decision. You close your eyes one final time and fall backwards. You stumble back falling over your feet. You hit the ground and wrap your arms around your knees. Bill watches you, his eyes wide and falls back to hold your shaking body in his.

You sat there for ages. Just an hour of Bill whispering sweet nothings in your ear. To you though, they were everything.

A/N: Okay so I'm sorry if this made you cry. I'm also very gald that you made it through this chapter if you are struggling with your mental health. Thank you for reading this chapter, and please, if you are having these thoughts please talk to someone. I know it's hard, but letting it out, and just saying you're struggling will help. I promise, the road is long, but you'll get there. ❤❤❤