Sword Art Online ALICIZATION- Reversal

Chapter 53- Back in the Ring

I groaned softly, opening my eyes with a soft smile. 'S-so warm...' I thought as I looked up at Bercouli and when I closed them to decide what to say, I opened my eyes and saw clearly. I immediately shot up and looked at the Knight Commander. "That's right... I was taken by the Emperor's dragon!" I exclaimed but then I noticed Bercouli's missing arm, and his other wounds... my breathing began to pick up in speed. "No..." I whimpered. 'Not again... not again... not again! NOT AGAIN!' I started to shake Bercouli, tearing up as I got no reaction. "IDIOT!" I screamed as I hammered my fist on his chest. "You're just like him! Idiot! Idiot, idiot, idiot, idiot!! You crazy fool! WHY!?!?!?" I screeched, furious. In those moments, I was afraid. Why did Bercouli have to die? How would Kirito react, what would he think of me? "Why did you have to play hero, why did you act like a reckless idiot! WHY DID YOU ACT LIKE KIRITO!" I shouted angrily, banging my fist on his lifeless chest angrily. "Why... why did you sacrifice yourself..." I whispered, crying. What was I going to tell Kirito? What will he do to me when he wakes up and finds out? Will he hate me? Would he be okay without his Mentor? And... most importantly, what would happen to the Knights without their leader? 

After a while of sobbing, I'd calmed down and Bercouli's body became completely cold. Two dragons had landed beside me as a girl landed beside me. "Are you from the other world?" I asked, wiping my eyes. I was burning internally but I also felt cold, despite being my normal temperature. My emotions were churning, boiling and mixing. I couldn't protect Eugeo, Kirito, or Eldie... and I couldn't help Bercouli. I failed him again, what kind of wife let's her husband suffer like this? That question was the root of my turmoil. I felt as if I was a failure, like Kirito would dispise me for being too weak. Was it foolish, possibly. But after being so stressed for such a long time, it was hard to not fear the worst. Even so, I clung to hope. And as the blonde girl explained the situation to me, I felt only one desire. To go back. I was his wife, it was my job to protect him. And... as a Knight, I must protect those who cannot protect themselves... yet, I knew I had to go to the World's End Alter. The other blonde said as much, but I was still reluctant. My instincts were all but strangling me, shaking me and screaming at me! Practically DEMANDING that I return to Kirito's side... before Asuna falters and lets something bad happen to him. 

Regardless, against what I suspected to be my better judgment, I ignored this urge, but I wasn't sure how long I could. Still, before my emotions got the better of me, I left to the World's End Alter. I couldn't remember the conversation I had with the other-worlder. In truth, I wasn't really paying much attention to her. I was far too concerned with Kirito and what would become of him. I could only pray to the Gods I no longer believed in that Asuna was as strong as Stacia was in the Legends and Stories.