Kismet's Cultivation [Metanoia Series 1]

Kismet 17 🌱

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A counter welcomed me as I entered the establishment. People in white uniforms are everywhere. The smell of antiseptic was lingering on the place. I heard the lady behind the counter called some names. Everything inside looked busy and worried. If not, some looked anxious while some are terrified specially kids.

I walked to the counter for queries. After knowing the room number, I gave her a small smile before turning around. I walked in a white hallway. I heard someone shout behind me to give me warning before I step aside. I saw nurses rushing a man on a hospital bed, bleeding.

I turned left and the hallway looked eerily scary with no one in the hallway. I felt like I was in a horror movie then I imagine that light will suddenly turned off or something will show up in front of me. I shivered at the thought. Maybe it's like this because it's the private part of the hospital.

Gusto ko na agad umalis pero nakita ko na agad ang kwartong hinahanap ko. Gusto ko mang umatras ay hindi ko magawa. Sayang naman ang pinunta ko. Napahawak ako sa sling bag na dala ko habang ang isa naman ay hawak ang aking cellphone.

Magsisimula pa lang sana akong maglakad papuntang kwarto kaso nakita kong bumukas ang pinto nito. A familiar man walked towards my direction. Behind him is a man in his white uniform pushing a wheelchair. My eyes went round as the woman on the wheelchair caught my attention.

She is very familiar to me. Even though she was so slim that I can see her collar bone like never before. It was showing from her patient dress. Her shoulders sagged like she was so weak. Her cheeks that once made her face rounded now showed depth. Her jaw became more define. Her lips that's covered with red lipstick was changed into its natural pale color and dry. Her eyes looked tired. Her brows that always on flick and her silky-smooth hair... gone.

Parang ibang tao ang nasa harap ko. Muntik ko nang hindi makilala kung hindi ko lang nakita ang mayor sa harap nila.

They walked passed me like I am someone invisible. Not even throwing me a glance. I chased them with my eyes and saw them entered a room. Sumunod ako at muntik nang mapaupo sa sahig nang makumpirma nga ang sinabi sa akin ng mama ni Zaffron.

The corner of my eyes watered as I looked at the bold sign at the top of the door.

Chemotherapy Room.

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Bagsak ang mga balikat akong umuwi. Ni hindi ko namalayang nakauwi na ako. I rushed into my room and closed the door even though I heard Nana calling my name.

Tears that I've been preventing from falling all poured on my cheek as I felt something painful in my chest.

Bakit? Bakit ngayon pa 'to nangyayari kung kailan may nagbibigay ng saya sa buhay ko? Bakit kailangan ganito?

Nag-uumpisa pa lang kami. No. Mag-uumpisa pa lang kami after graduation. 'Yung normal. 'Yung hindi patago. 'Yung alam ng iba at alam ng mga mahal ko sa buhay.

Bakit... Bakit kung kailang gustong-gusto ko na siya?

Muli kong naalala ang itsura ni Natasha kanina. Parang hindi siya na laging nakaayos at nakaporma sa school. Laging mataray ay may nakakatakot na aura. Na kaunting kanti mo lang sa kaniya siguradong mapagti-tripan ka na sa mga sumunod na araw. Pero kanina... para siyang hinang-hina...

Kung noo'y nakakatakot ngayo'y nakakaawa siya.

I bit my lower lip when I realized something.

Kaya ba ang hinihinging kapalit kay Zaffron ay ang alagaan siya dahil ganoon ang lagay niya? Pero bakit kailangang siya pa? Marami namang ibang tao na pwedeng magbantay at mag-alaga kay Natasha.