Kismet's Cultivation [Metanoia Series 1]

Kismet 35 🌱

I smiled to myself when I saw the usual side of Zaffron empty. Maybe, he's cooking now. Or into surprise again. I shook my head at the thought. His effort for my birthday really melt my heart. Kaya pala ang busy niya sa phone niya recently. May pinaplano pala siyang ganoon sa birthday ko.

With heavy head, I move out of my room. My eyes instantly scanned the place and looked for Zaffron but I couldn't find him. I went to the kitchen then checked the bathroom. I even went to the balcony but I couldn't find him. I went back to the kitchen, baka kasi hindi ko lang siya napansin. Then I saw a meal on the dinning table. I smiled as I saw a rose.

I instantly remove the cover and saw a note.

Please reheat me.

I frowned at the note but did what it say. I I opened the microwave and saw another note with a familiar penmanship.

Napakunot ang noo ko. Sobrang weird. Napailing na lang ako at ininit ang pagkain. The whole time, I was wondering where was Zaffron. The only place I haven't visited is his room. But Michelle was currently there. So, nasaan siya?

I finished my breakfast and I felt full. Kasi sobrang dami ng niluto ni Zaffron and he want me to finish it like what's on the note. I washed the dishes after it and went straight to the balcony, following the instructions on the note. I smiled as I looked at my vertical garden. The container that serves as pot on my garden was labeled with letters, specifically letters I, L, O, V, E, Y, O, and U.

On the bottom corner, I saw the letter card.

I opened it excitedly not knowing what's inside. But as I started to read it's content, I felt my heart being squeezed every sentence I read.

Zyla,

I hope you're full. Did you enjoy my cooking?

I didn't want to do this, but I need to fix my mess for us. I don't want to be a burden anymore. You know well how much I wanted to wake up next to you. To face things with you. To do crazy things with you. I always wanted to do things with you. But there are things I need to do alone. For the people around me. For you. For me. For us.

I'll leave, but I will be back. But please, don't wait for me. Rest assured that it's fine with me if ever you'll open your heart for someone else and love again.

Be happy.

Nandito lang naman ako palagi. Maghihintay sa'yo hanggang dulo. Maghihintay kung kalian pwede na tayo.

I hope, the next time we meet, the sky wasn't so dark for us. I hope, the next time we meet, the stars was aligned for us perfectly.

At kung hindi talaga tayo para sa isa't isa sa panahong 'to, aasa na lang ako na sana may tayo na sa susunod na buhay ko. Pero ngayon, sapat na sa 'kin ang bumangon kasabay ka, kahit hindi na kasama.

Tulad noon, mananaliti ang pangarap ko na bumangon kasama ka. Ang gumising araw-araw sa tabi mo. Pero ngayon, hahayaan ko munang maging pangarap lang iyon, hanggang hindi pa ako sapat para sa iyo. Hanggang sa ayaw pa sa atin ng mundo.

Salamat sa pagpaparamdam kung gaano mo ako kamahal. Salamat sa mga araw na bumabangon ako at ikaw ang unang nakikita. Salamat sa lahat, at patawad sa mga sakit na idinulot at idudulot ko sa'yo.

Zyla, mahal na mahal kita...

Ikaw lang noon. Ikaw lang ngayon. Ikaw lang hanggang sa susunod na mga taon.

Zaffron

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