Don't Wanna Cry (Seventeen's Fanfic) [ MILITIA SERIES 1 ]

Chapter 35

I FELT THE cold breeze that's coming in my window. Who the heck open this one? I perfectly remember that I closed this last night.

"Hyung, breakfast!" I heard Mingyu knocked the door of my room.

"Coming." I shouted but in a manner.

I get out of my bed and wear my hoodie. I have this habit that before I go to sleep, i'll took off my upper clothes and wear nothing underneath the comforter.

I saw them eating silently in the dining table while watching TV. Mingyu put the plate infront of me while he handed me the food that he cooked. I silently eat while I watched what they're watching.

"Do we have any important things to do today?" I looked at Joshua who asked.

"No, nothing." I answered while I chew my food.

"Don't eat while you're mouth is full, remember?" I went silent after DK said that. Actually we all went silent.

"We know." Joshua put his hand on DK's hair and messed with it.

It's her saying. She taught us that, you shall not talk when your mouth is full.

"I'm done. I'll be heading in my studio." Woozi said after he put his plate in the sink.

"DK, you washed them, 'aight?" Dokyeom just shrugged his shoulder while he continue to eat his food.

"Where are you exactly going and you have to asked if we have important matters?" I curiously asked Joshua.

"I'll be visiting her today. It's second death year anniversary." He smiled to me while I closed my eyes. "Aren't you going?"

"I can't."

"It's okay. I'll just wish in behalf of you." He said while he stood up and put his plate on the sink.

I lost my appetite. I can't eat. It's like my mind is full of hatred and loneliness right now. Memories came flashing on my mind like a rain. It's been two years and I can't still accept the fact that she's gone.

"Hyung..."

"I'm okay." I calmy said to Mingyu, DK and Wonwoo who's looking at me.

After we finished eating I went back to my room and stared at the ceiling. I found myself looking at my homescreen, and just like that, the loneliness doubles.

"I miss you, Love." I softly whispered while caressing her face in my homescreen.

This photo was taken when we're in Busan. It's been two years since we went there, and everytime i'm going into that place I felt, really lonely and miserable. It's like that place was made to hurt me and make me happy.

"Love..." I hugged my phone while I closed my eyes, trying to remember her smiling face.

I smiled a little when I remember her feisty attitude towards us. The first meeting and the way I took off her hat from her head. It was all clear in my mind. I can't stop myself to restore that in my mind.

"How are you? I miss you." I looked at her again and try to talk to her, imagining if she would answer.

I closed my eyes again and imagine her face smiling at me. I look like some crazy person but this makes me calm. Even if my members somtimes call me crazy, they never stop me from loving her. It's been two years but the love I have for her, still remains the same.

Two years have passed and I must say that we've become a better artist now. I'm quite satisfied not because we're some kind of famous, but we've dreamed of having this. We dreamed of performing infront of thousands of people and being known as self producing idols. We were labeled as that because we make a name on our own.