apologies & regrets | bnha (bkdk)

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A/N: this is one of my favorite chapters out of all the ones i've written so far tbh :3 and i hope you'll like it too!! :D

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"Uh, Mr Aizawa? Where's Bakugou?" Mina asked.

Ochako coughed loudly, Shouto, and Tenya side-eyed Mina.

Mina hadn't heard anything about what had occured earlier that day. It hadn't been a particularly long time since then, barely over an hour, actually, there wasn't really that much time for the news to spread throughout the entire class. As far as Mina knew, Eijirou was going to talk to Katsuki the very next day.

"Yeah! Where'd he go?" Denki asked, right before Eijirou glared at him.

Aizawa silently looked around the classroom. "Iida, Todoroki, Uraraka, and Kirishima. Do you have anything to say about Bakugou's absense? Do you know why he's not here?"

They all shook their heads. They weren't really lying, they didn't know what kind of problem he was dealing with, and to them that problem was obviously the reason why he wasn't there. So, in conclusion, they didn't exactly know why he wasn't there.

Aizawa stared at them for a few seconds, before he asked them to answer his question, and to be honest this time. Ochako looked at Tenya, as if to tell him that she was planning on answering Aizawa's question. She ignored Tenya shaking his head at her, telling her not to.

"I can't give you an exact answer, Mr Aizawa. All we really know is that something's been bothering Bakugou. We don't know what, but we originally wanted to have Kirishima talk to him about it tomorrow, but," she paused, looking around the classroom, her sight lingering on the faces of some of her classmates. She looked back at Aizawa, "I was getting worried about him, and curious honestly, so I abandoned the class' plan, and went to talk to him on my own. He got mad at me during our conversation, and stormed out of the classroom, and we all haven't actually seen him since." Ochako sat back down, ignoring everyone who quietly asked her why she told Aizawa. The only response she had to spare for them, was a simple shrug.

She was sure that he would've found out eventually anyway.

Aizawa seemed to be thinking about what his student just said. He was contemplating what to say next.

"And none of you know what exactly has been troubling him?" It almost sounded like their teacher didn't believe them, when they said that they didn't know. No one answered him, which he quickly seemed to accept as a reply this time.

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"Hey," Katsuki's voice was unusually soft. He'd just arrived at Izuku's grave. He didn't really know why he kept talking to Izuku.

He didn't believe in ghosts, and even if he did, he was pretty sure that no ghost in their right mind would just spend eternity lingering around their own grave, wasting time. He still found peace when talking to Izuku — or more precisely, when talking to Izuku's grave, since his former friend couldn't actually hear him. Probably.

He sat down on the ground in front of Izuku's grave. He didn't really know what to talk to him about, or if it was better to just simply stay silent for once. He sighed, smiling. He didn't know why he was smiling, or what he was smiling about. All he knew, was that he felt like smiling. That's probably what happens when one thinks about Midoriya Izuku as much as Katsuki did. Izuku really was always on Katsuki's mind, he just didn't seem to know how to move on. He didn't really want to move on either. He wouldn't say that he was content with the way everything was at that moment, but he simply felt like he shouldn't even try, and move on. He felt like he didn't deserve to move on at all. He felt like he owed at least that to Izuku.