heart mate - the journey of love

story continues.....

4th  September  2018
Monday

I went to the library as soon as my class got over, but felt disappointed after reaching there. My eyes started searching for him but he was not found. This has been happening since a week. I haven't seen him for almost a week and I'm so desperate for just a glance of him. This is not me. This is definitely not me. I have never been so desperate for anything before. All this change in me is because of him and now he is playing with my feelings, sorry I'm letting him play with my feelings. I know this is just a mere crush but the truth is this feeling is crushing me inside. I'm not able to think straight, not a thought without him. I don't even know him but still my feelings are growing stronger day by day. Shreya told me that these are very normal and after a few days we'll just forget them coz its just a crush. But i don't want to forget him. I don't know what to do...........
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1st  October  2018
Monday

I completed my 3 projects that were assigned to me and I'm so happy. Our internship is over and we are on our way to discover ahmedabad, trip with our batchmates that is me, shreya, kajal, rohit, raunak and varun. I'm sitting on the hotel bed and writing this diary while shreya and Raunak are busy talking with eachother, did i mention that they are dating now? Kajal is busy in the hotel bar, she loves to party. I'm over him i guess coz i no longer think about him. Then what am i doing now?? So funny right!! But I'm back to normal. I don't have feelings for him anymore
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2nd  October  2018
Tuesday

Hey diary something really weird happened yesterday night. I'm still not completely out of the shock that i received yesterday. I was reading a novel when suddenly someone barged in through the balcony of my room( hotel). He was dressed up as if there was a fancy dress competition. He was dressed in a frog attire. I got panicked and strated calling for help. He came so close to me and i became hell nervous. He closed my mouth and asked me not to shout. He asked me to help him,he wanted me to kiss him so that he could become human again from that frog just like in the movie ' the princess and the frog' where the princess kisses him and he turns back into human. I was so raged that i started hitting him, in that process he pulled my hand making me fall on him and..........i.........ended up kissing.....him. Hey it was not intentional, it was a complete accident but it actually felt more like fate coz the moment i kissed him his zip went loose and the frog attire came down and i just happened to look at his face revealing him..........yes its him, my crush. Was it fate?? How come he came here? And how come i ended up giving my first kiss to him? What should i call this?
After that he ran away without even a word. Is he a pyscho or what? Suddenly barged into a girls room asked for a kiss and then leaving without giving any explanation. Is he really the guy i used to admire? I went down searching for him and found him talking to varun. When i asked varun he told me that the guy is his friend and that even he is joining us in the trip. And that he asking me to kiss him in the frog's attire was all a dare it seems. These idiots asked him to do it, i just felt like killing them. I thought i was over him, why did he have to come back again. My poor heart, how am i gonna stop it now that too after giving my first kiss to him, well.......what is his name??
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