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Want To Be There-Kihyun

Medium (2691 words)
Warnings: Veryyyy slight mention of death

(Y/n)'s POV

Yet again, I woke up to an empty bed. It's been like this for weeks. He'd leave before I would wake up, and I'd be asleep before he'd come home.

When Kihyun and I first started dating, we were inseparable. Every single moment he could, he'd be calling, texting, or hanging out with me. He would sneak into my apartment at night, even though he was supposed to be at the dorms. He'd take me on countless dates to the beach, the park, and the restaurants we both love. However, after a year of dating, we weren't able to see each other very much. We still loved each other very much, but Monsta X was getting more and more popular, which meant longer hours and less off days. Eventually, we started fighting. We never got to see each other, and when we did, we were both exhausted from work. Our exhaustion would get the best of us, making us fight over the dumbest things. Things like the dishes not being done, or his dirty clothes littered all over the apartment. Some days, it felt like the fights would be the end of us. After almost 2 full years of dating, have we reached our breaking point?

My question was answered later that night. I got home from work late. I didn't feel like cooking up a fancy meal, so I decided to just pour myself some cereal with an apple on the side. I scrolled through social media, watching videos of the boys having fun, joking around, and playing games with each other from today's vlive. As I was eating, the door opened, revealing a worn out Kihyun. His eyes were dull, and he looked ready to just pass out. He didn't seem to notice me eating at the table, so he went straight to the kitchen.

A loud sigh came from the kitchen as Kihyun grabbed some leftovers to heat up. He then joined me at the kitchen table, finally noticing my presence.

"Hey." He said before digging in. I gave him a small greeting before going back to my food. Even once we both finished our food, we sat in silence. The night before, we had a huge fight, and neither of us had said anything since.

"Oh, you feel unloved? Unappreciated? Welcome to my life. I work for 12 hours straight because my boss doesn't know how to do her job, yet get paid the same amount as the intern that works for our company, I miss meals because I have no time to eat while at work, and I come home dead tired, only to wait for my boyfriend who's never here."

"You knew coming into this relationship that I wouldn't be here to answer your every beck and call! Did you really think I could just put off all of my work because you feel a bit tired? No. I have lyrics to write, dances to learn, songs to sing, and millions of fans to keep happy, yet my own girlfriend isn't able to do something as simple as make a dinner for me." I stood there, wide eyed. After a long moment of silence, his words finally settled in. I could see the regret in his eyes, but he didn't try to say anything else.

"I'm going to stay in the dorms tonight. Goodnight." He said, picking up his phone and jacket before leaving the apartment.

"So..." Kihyun trailed off, trying to initiate conversation. I didn't know what to say. I felt tired. Physically, emotionally, and mentally tired.

"This isn't working. I can't keep fighting. It hurts, and I'm tired of it." I said quietly, tears welling up in my eyes.

"I know." He replied softly, also starting to cry. We both took a couple breaths to calm down.

"I love you. A lot." I told him. He whimpered, not able to hold in his tears.

"I love you so much." He whispered, looking straight into my eyes.

"Maybe sometime in the future... things could work out." He told me. I held in my sobs. We both knew things weren't going to work out now, even if we did love each other.