"Snap Out Of It"~Camren~

Ch. 16

~Camila P.O.V~
I was sitting on one of the couches in the buss thinking about the day Lauren got drunk. More importantly the song she sang, it was beautiful but sad. I always figured it was about me but I still want to ask her. Just as if on cue she crawled onto the couch next me and snuggled into my side. "Hi love." she said in a calm tone. "Hey, I wanted to talk to you about something but if you don't want to you don't have to." I was growing more and more nervous about this conversation. I don't know why but I'm guessing it's because it's probably just a touchy subject. "Well if something's on your mind I wanna hear about it so shoot." She sounded more nervous now as I began to open my mouth. "It's about the day you got drunk, not necessarily the being drunk part but about the song you sang that day. I always assumed but I just wanted to confirm if it was about me or not." I dropped my head down not knowing how Lauren would react and hoping that she's not mad that I brought it up. She lifted my chin up so our eyes met and began. "Look Camz..that day was one of my worst. Its one of the worst things I have ever had to go through. What happened was..." Tears started to roll down her face and I quickly wiped them and wrapped my arms around her. "Listen if it's to hard to say right now it's okay, we can talk about it when you're ready." I kept wiping away her tears wondering how I got so lucky to be able to hold her in my arms. "No it's okay. I can do this. What happened was I guess I went to take a nap and when I fell asleep, I had a dream..and in the dream we kissed and it was perfect. Everything was amazing, I had you finally and we were gonna go on our first date. That's when I woke up, I thought I had overslept that's why I ran in and asked why you were in your pajamas because we were gonna be late for our date. When you said that we had nothing planned it hit me about what actually happened and that I'd been dreaming. It was like someone sucked all the air out of my lungs that for that little but of time I thought I had you. Anyway..yes the song is and will always be about you." She took a deep breath and I didn't really know how to respond. I'm not even sure I can try and feel how she felt. If it was flopped and I was on her side I would've lost it, well I mean technically she did. "Baby...I don't-" I said but was soon cut off. "It's okay, I know you probably have no idea what to even think. I understand all that matters is that you're here now and you're mine. I'm not letting anything or anyone take you away from me because you have no idea how long I've been waiting for this." Her eyes poured through me with the most compassion I've ever seen. "Lolo?" "Yeah Camz?" Hehe I'm her Camz. "When did you begin having feelings for me?" She rolled her eyes to look up in to the ceiling in thought. "To be honest I don't want to say 'the first time I laid eyes on you' because that's not true. Yes you had an affect on me and yes when I looked at you I knew you were special to me for some reason but I hadn't made the connection yet. It was when you when up on the X-Factor stage and sang. When you sang you broke my heart. I was just blank, and then of course you being your bubbly self I just fell in love with the way you sang and the way you were so passionate about music. Don't even get me started on your personality. Your laugh is so contagious and you just had this affect on me that made people fall in love with you. The way you don't care if people see you in your banana slippers or in high heels." My heart was racing so fast and my face was about 100 degrees. The entire time she never made eye contact with me so I knew she was nervous. "You love me? I mean I know you love me but there's a difference between loving someone and being in love with someone." My head was spinning and I can't believe I just let that out of my mouth. "Camila I fall in love with you everyday or as Dinah says you have me absolutely and completely whipped." Her lips curved into a smile and we both laughed about how ridiculous Dinah was. "Well in that case wether it's to be loved or to be in love. I love you." I said and she pressed her lips on mine. Just the feeling of her lips place onto mine made my heart swell. "I love you too Camzzi." An idea popped in my brain and I got really excited. "Why are you jumping up and down doing your happy dance?" She asked and I couldn't keep a smile off my face. "1. because I'm so lucky to have a beautiful and amazing girlfriend that I love very much, and 2. because I have a surprise for you! Don't ask questions just meet me here tomorrow at 7 but I want you gone the rest of the day, you're not aloud to be in the bus till then. Got it Jauregui?" She had confused written all over that beautiful face and I couldn't help but laugh. "Got it but only if you snuggle with me tonight." She's so dumb. "I was gonna snuggle with you anyway idiot."