"Snap Out Of It"~Camren~

Ch. 20

~Lauren's P.O.V~
We have an interview today on Ellen and I'm so excited. Camz is freaking out right now because she doesn't know if she can contain her "feels" for her. We'll be on in about 10 minutes and if I'm being honest this is really nerve racking. I was walking past when I heard a familiar voice talking. "No of course...obviusly in not dating Lauren that would be ridiculous...I promise, she means absolutely nothing to me in that way...okay, I love you to bye." My heart was crushed and I felt wet tears dripping down my face. How could Camila say that? Especially behind my back. I walked into the room as tears kept flowing freely out of my wet eyes. She noticed me and instantly acted like what I just heard never happened. She came to my side about to wipe my tears away when I flipped out. "NO! Get away from me Camila! I hate you!" I turned back around and ran out. I found a separate closet and broke down. I fell to the floor in tears and thought about how I knew it was all to good to be true. I feel like the entire world just collapsed on top of me an I wasn't able to do anything about it. My sobs grew louder and louder to the point were Dinah, who was looking for me, eventually found me by the loudness of my cries. She opened the door but I kept my head down in between my legs. "Lo what the hell just happened? Why did you run off?" Was she stupid or was she stupid? "Dont act like you don't know! You were there with her!" She was now looking at me like I was crazy and I couldn't help but feel like I was. "Lauren what do you mean, I really don't know what you're talking about." I was pissed that the only person I trusted with my feelings toward Camila was lying straight to my face. "What she said! I heard her! I heard her say that I mean nothing to her! Don't act like you weren't there!" Even saying it out loud made my chest pound in pain. "Oh my god. Holy shit I'm sorry Lo, that wasn't her fault." Ok really another lie. This is ridiculous. "What do you mean it's not her fault she's the one who said it! Don't try and be her cover up Dinah!" "I'm not! Don't you know me better than that?! She was on the phone with her mom! Sinu was getting suspicious about all the fans talking about Camren so she called Camila. She wasn't ready to just say "Hey mom yeah Camren's real and I'm gay." So she made up all that. Mila would never do that to you and if she did say that and meant it you know me well enough that I would've kicked her ass!" Wow. I feel like a total idiot. Now I've managed to make myself look like a complete jerk and she probably thinks I'm crazy because of how I reacted. Good job Lauren, this day just keeps getting worse. I never had the chance to talk to Camila because we had to go on the show now so I'm hoping I get a question about the group so I can show her I'm not mad. She needs to know I'm not mad at her so I can fix this. We went to go sit down and I put on my best fake smile. She completely avoided me and changed positions but Dinah got the memo and switched just in time so I was next to her. The expression on her face hurt me because she looked so scared and looked like she was about to crumble all cause I I was just sitting next to her. Ellen began talking and I hoped that the rest of these couple of minutes would be over so I could talk to Camz.
~Interview~
E: Woah! What's up Fifth Harmony?
N: Woah! What's up Ellen?
E: Nothing just interviewing these really cool singers that are in a band together.
D: Oh that sounds fun. I think I know who you're talking about they're pretty cute!
The crowd started laughing and things so far were going smoothly.
E: So! I don't want to be the normal interviewer that asks all the same boring questions every time.
A: Finally.
E: Haha okay so! It's about to get deep here. I have 1 question each for all of you.
D: Okay.
E: Alright let's start with you Camila.
She looked up in horror that she had to actually speak.
C: Yass my turn lets do this!
E: Kiss or diss, Harry Styles?
C: Um probably diss, I respect him to much and he's not my type but I love him, he's really sweet.
E: Awesome! Okay let's go with...Lauren.
I looked up, eyes wide and pretended to be cool.
L: Shoot.
E: Who's your favorite girl in the group?
L: Um..Camz.
E: Why?
L: Because she's just amazing. I can talk to her about anything and she's really sweet. Don't get me wrong I love all these girls to death and they're my sisters but Camila is probably the one who is most special to me.
N: Yeah they're inseparable.
E: Aw that's cute, okay Dinah.
I didn't pay attention to the rest of the other girls questions, I only paid attention to the blank stare Camila was giving the table in front of us. The look on her face was blank and I couldn't even begin to imagine what was going on in her head. I was beginning to get worried when I felt a hand rub my back. I missed her touch so much and it's only been an hour since my melt down. My mind was at ease that Camila wasn't mad at me. I got lost in her touch and by the time I snapped back out of my thoughts the interview was over and we were making our way out of the building. Camila still hadn't said a word to me but I wanted to give her space for a while so she could collect her thoughts. When we got to the bus we ended up getting in a car because Normani wanted to celebrate us being on Ellen by going out to eat. This time Camz wasn't next to me and I couldn't help but feel even worse. My head was leaning against the window with small tears dropping from my eyes every now and then. I wiped my face and look over to Camila. When our eyes met I tried to make it as noticeable as possible that I was sorry. She looked back down and began fiddling with her fingers. We got inside the little Mexican restaurant and sat down. I made sure I sat next to Camila because I don't think I can handle not talking to her anymore. We sat down and I couldn't help but think she probably felt like I was trying to trap her. I scooted closer to her in the booth and went closer to whisper something in her ear. She flinched but eventually relaxed as I got closer. "I'm sorry Camz, I'll explain later. Please don't be upset with me I love you." She didn't answer but placed her hand on my leg. I felt my heart being ripped out of my chest when she didn't say I love you back but this whole thing is pretty much my fault so I need to suck it up and deal with what was coming. Even if it's as bad as Camila ignoring me. God I want this day to end.