Goodbye Lullaby (COMPLETED)

Chapter 4

Disappointments from my Mom and Dad made me a keeper of promises. Surprising? Alistine Dionne, a total bitch, keeper of promises?

Nah. Cut me some slack. I'm still human.

Ever since I was a child, all I get is an unbelievable chunk of broken promises. That's why I try not to break one when I make one.

In fact, I made a promise to myself after the very first time Eros and I made a mistake.

But unfortunately, it's been broken for how many times now.

I woke up in Eros' arms the next day. We were still in the living room at magkayakap pang natutulog sa couch. He was topless because I was wearing his muscle tee. I looked up and saw his half open mouth and disheveled hair. It took me a moment to realize what happened.

Fucking hell. I may be an arrogant bitch, but I value words.

Pumikit ako nang mariin at bumuntonghininga. I was getting angry at myself for letting things happen. I wanna get mad at Eros, too, but then I was the one who asked for a kiss.

And I hated it so much.

Thank goodness we didn't reach third base. Bilib din ako sa self control ng lalakeng 'to. 'Cause if we did, things between us will permanently change. Not that it's not right now, though.

I quickly pushed him off me and he fell to the floor.

"Shit," bumangon si Eros na hinihilot ang siko niya. He turned to look at me and glared. "What the hell? You could've just woken me up."

I glared too. "Well, you're awake now. Why are you here? And why are you hugging me?!"

He stared at me before he stood up and sat back on the couch. "You said you wanna sleep here." Simpleng sagot niya.

I raised a brow. "Uh huh, I know that. So bakit andito ka rin?"

Sinimangutan niya ako. Then his eyes drifted to his shirt that I'm wearing. He sighed and pulled the hem to cover my legs. Unfortunately for him, I was only wearing my underwear underneath.

"I wanna sleep here too. And what? I can't get a hug?"

My face heated in annoyance. "There are rooms upstairs! Besides, I don't do cuddles!"

As if he's not annoying enough, he chuckled. "Well, I do."

My lips parted. Gusto kong tumawa ngunit pinagmamasdan niya ako so I just rolled my eyes and stood up to leave. Because what the fuck? He likes cuddles?! Oh, boy, I don't wanna believe that! But then, I remembered our sleep overs where he wouldn't sleep without extra pillows to hug.

Shit. Akala ko sa unan niya lang gusto! And now, I woke up huddled in his arms...

Malaki ang ngiti ko nang makuha ang cellphone, ready to expose Eros' ass to our friends. Just when I was typing Eros likes to cuddle after hooking up in the text, I remembered the thing we did and how I want it to stay a secret to the both of us. Bumagsak ang ngiti ko.

Fuck it.

Did I almost expose myself to our friends too? Now, I'm mad at myself again.

I seriously need to stop breaking my own promises to myself. It's not good at nadadamay pa si Eros. I'm also getting scared as shit right now because I know I fucked up. I don't want him to think that I'm up for arrangements or whatever.

We're friends. Bandmates. I want us to remain that way so I'll try not to fuck up again.

Tumayo ako nang maayos at pinagdikit ang hita nang makita siyang pumasok sa kitchen. I tried not to gawk at his bare chest and abs 'cause he's still topless. Which made me look at mine when I realized that I'm not wearing a bra under his muscle tee. I bit my lower lip. My side boobs are showing and I'm only wearing my panty as bottom!