Goodbye Lullaby (COMPLETED)

Chapter 12

And you were sittin' in the corner with the coats all piled high
And I thought you might be mine
In a small world, on an exceptionally rainy Tuesday night
In the right place and time
-
Knee Socks by Arctic Monkeys

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I don't wanna say that I'm disappointed.

But fuck, I am!

How can he not take advantage! Niyakap na rin naman ako nung dalawa at hinalikan sa ulo! He might as well did!

Gods.

I know we agreed not to fuck up again. But really?! We don't hug often anymore because that's what's written in the damn characteristics of platonic friends that he googled! We really pressured ourselves into this set up that we have to google how to fucking act up as friends kasi lahat na nagkaroon ng malisya. That only made hugging weird kahit normal naman naming ginagawa iyon dati.

But now we had a chance and he fucking dodge! A chance to hug as friends! Yung walang attraction as an excuse na lang sana!

Hindi ko na rin talaga maintindihan. I feel like we're going backwards. Ginugulo niya pa rin ang isip ko at naiinis na lang din ako sa sarili ko.

I feel so frustrated that I ignored him for the rest of the night. Justin and Valen handed their gifts over dinner. Eros didn't give any.

He knew I was annoyed because he kept giving me confused looks. Talagang hindi ko siya pinapansin.

Nawalan lang ng choice nang harangin niya ako sa sasakyan. We were getting pillows and comforters para makatulog na sa tent pero hinuli niya ako. He carried me by the waist and made me sit at the back seat of the car. I protested but he glared at my soul.

"Enough." He said.

Nakita kong napalingon sa 'min si Justin at pinaningkitan kami ng mata bago nagpatuloy sa paglalakad paputang tent dala ang mga unan. He shoved Valentine in again when they passed by each other. Napatiim bagang ako at sinamaan ng tingin si Eros.

May kinukuha ito sa likod na upuan at nang subukan kong umalis ay tinukod niya ang isang kamay sa gilid ko. Completely locking me in place.

"Stay fucking still or we're never gonna be over," he's as annoyed as me now. So I stayed just so he knows I'm ready to argue.

Madilim ngunit kita ko ang malalim na kunot ng noo at pag-igting ng panga niya. His hair is now messy and he's changed into shorts and T-shirt.

"Ano ba?!" I hissed when he slipped a dark green hoodie over my head. Pareho pa rin ang suot ko mula kanina.

"Malamig na. 'Wag mo nang dagdagan," he stared piercely at me. My lips parted. Bago pa makapagsalita ay inunahan niya na ako.

"Kamay." His voice was full of command when he lifted the sleeves of the hoodie.

What the fuck is this?! Ano niya 'ko, anak? Hindi ako makapaniwala. My annoyance is slowly melting because this is fucking hilarious!

He breathed patiently when I just stared at him. Siya na mismo ang naglusot ng mga kamay ko sa sleeves at hinatak ang hem ng hoodie pababa sa 'king bewang. He raised a brow at me when he's done... and I'm fucking blushing.

"Did you buy pajamas?"

Oh, how the tables have turned.

Tumango lamang ako at humalukipkip, finding comfort in his hoodie. Ang lamig pala talaga. My legs feel like steal sa manipis na tela ng aking skirt.

"Good. Change first before we talk."

I glared at him, not liking to be told to. Of course I'll change into pajamas! Hinarang harang niya lang ako!