Unspoken Past (Completed)

"Yeh 13 Din Tu Mera Hoo Jaa"

     Sana sat with her mobile. The social media was full of wishes and prayers for Sid. She was sitting on the couch in the balcony. The cool breeze calming her. After few minutes she decided to change and sleep. There was a knock on the door. It opened and she saw Sid standing in the doorway. He came in and stepped in the balcony. Sitting next to her on the couch he rested his head on her shoulder.
Sana: Tu fir aa gaya??
Sid: Mai gaya he kab tha baby?? Tu udaas hogi to mai aise he aaunga tere paas. Ab nhi hone dena chahta mere vajah se tuje dukhi.
Sana: Par tu ab mat aaya kar. Ab tu kisi aur ka hai.
Sid: Mai tera best friend hu aur hamesha rahunga.
Sana: Nahi chahiye muje teri dosti jaa tu ab yaha se.
Sid: Nahi jaaunga.
Sana: Tu samajta kyu nhi hai siddharth.
Sid: Nahi samj na muje kuch bhi. Please muje jaane mat bol.
    Sana took his face in her hand. Sid was not looking at her
Sana: Siddharth idhar mere taraf dekh.
Sid: Nahi.
Sana: Please.
    Sid looked in her eyes. It was pleading to him. He looked away, signed and got up.
Sid: Thek hai. Agar tu yehi chahti hai to jaata hu. Par meri ek sharat hai??
Sana: Kya??
Sid: Party ke baad chahe kitne bhi baje ho, tu mere sath drive pe chalegi.
Sana: Thek hai.
Sid: Promise??
Sana: Promise.
Sid: Sure??
Sana: Jaa abhi.
Sid: Ha jaa raha hu. Bhaga muje moti tu.
    Sana laughed and he left.
    Pari noticed Sid was not in any mood for this party. His attention was somewhere else and that somewhere was in her room. Sheetal was already high. Pari and Sid dragged her to her car and told the driver to take her home. Vikas and kushal also left. Pari looked at Sid.
Pari: Kya chal raha hai bhai??
Sid: Kya??
Pari: Pura time aapka dyaan kahi aur tha, aapki girlfriend ke taraf nhi. Don't you think, you are entering into dangerous waters.
Adi: It's ok Pari. Let him. Iss baar yaa to aar yaa to paar hone de. The way he is living his life is not normal.
Sid: Adi my life is very much normal. Aur Pari aise kuch nhi hai. We are just trying to be friends until your wedding, so that they won't be any issue due to our cold War.
Pari: If that's the case it's ok. Kyuki mai Sana ko fir se dukhi nhi dekhna chahti, aur aapko bhi.
Sid: Tuje kya lagta hai?? Muje dur rehna chahiye na usse??
Pari: Nahi bhai, mai bilkul aise nhi keh rahi. Mai chahti hu ke aap dono ek dusre ko ek chance do.
Sid: Don't bring any ideas Pari. Meri aur Sana ke beech sirf dosti rehegi, usse zyada kuch nhi.
Adi: Kyu?? Aur kuch se tuje problem kya hai??
Sid: Kyuki mai nahi chahta.
Adi: Aur tu kyu nhi chahta??
Sid: Pari, tune yeh jo namuna chuna hai na apne leye, isse bole ke thoda kam bole, nhi to shaadi ke din yeh ek kaali aakh lekar mandap me baithega.
Adi: Siddharth, tu....
Pari: Accha accha, aap dono fir se shuru mat ho jaao. Baby chal tu bhi abhi ghar jaa.
    Adi looked at Sid angrily and left the room. Now Sid was in a turmoil. Should he take her to that drive or should he go to his room and call it a night. His heart so wanted to spend time with her, but his brain warned him otherwise. He paced the floor his heart debating with his brain and his heart won. He ran to Sana's room. She had fallen asleep. He went closer to her. He wanted to kiss her but resisted the urge.
Sid: Sana baby chal na.
Sana: Siddharth muje nahi anna. Neend aa rahi hai muje.
Sid: But tune promise kiya tha tu chalegi.
Sana: Nahi muje neend aa rahi hai.
Sid: Thek hai koi baat nhi. Tu so jaa.
    He kissed her forehead and was about to get up when she held his hand and opened her eyes.
Sana: Chal.
Sid: Nahi baby agar need aa rahi hai to so jaa.
Sana: Ab itni pyaari kiss ke baad meri neend khul gayi.
    Sid smiled. She got up from the bed, went to the bathroom. Came out looking all fresh and beautiful.
Sana: Chale??
Sid: Hmmm
    Sid couldn't form any words. The intensity of his feelings for her was so deep that he felt his life was meaningless without her. They drove in silence. Sid had got all emotional now. He so wanted to hug her, kiss her, cuddle with her, say whatever was in his mind to her and above all want to make love to her. He shouldn't have come to this drive with her. It was too dangerous. He was on the verge of letting it all go. Whatever he had held back, whatever he had locked up in the back of his heart. He wanted to keep all of it in front of her. Stop it. Just stop it, you idiot. Are you crazy?? What are you thinking. Just control yourself. Please. He begged to himself.
    Sana was looking at his handsome face. They had left the city behind. She didn't knew where there were going. But she didn't care. As long as it was with him. She didn't care. He was not looking at her. As if avoiding her gaze.
Sana: Kya hua hai??
Sid: Kuch nhi.
Sana: Tu itna chup kyu hai??
Sid: Pata nhi.
Sana: Matlab??
Sid: Sana please thodi der chup rahegi.
    Sana went quite after hearing his frustrated tone. She looked outside her window. He stopped the car at a dhaba. Came around and opened the car door for her. She didn't come out.
Sid: Sana please.
    Sana got down and followed Sid. They went inside and sat on a charpai in the far corner of the dhabha. The owner of the dhabha knew Sid. They nodded at each other. There were very few people there. It was all quiet. Sana sat quietly with her head bend.  Sid took her hand in his
Sid: I'm sorry.
Sana: Siddharth Tu muje yaha lana chahta tha. Shaayad tuje Sheetal ke sath aana chahiye tha.
Sid: Mere aur Sheetal ke beech Kuch nhi hai.
Sana: Matlab??
Sid: Matlab vo meri girlfriend nhi hai.
Sana: To fir??
Sid: Ab ghar wale usse meri girlfriend samajne lage to maine kuch nhi kaha.
Sana: Par sheetal tujhse pyaar karti hai.
Sid: Jaanta hu aur vo mere feelings ke baare me jaanti hai.
Sana: Fir ghar waalo se yeh....
Sid: Ghar wale har do char mahine baad mere shaadi ka topic nikaal kar ladkiya dekhna shuru ho jaate hai. Aur mai shadi nhi karna chahta.
Sana: Kyu Siddharth??
    Sid looked at Sana. Their eyes locked.
Sid: Nahi karni mujhe shadi.
    He looked away. Sana looked at their entwined fingers. Sid looked at her again.
Sid: Sana kya mai tuje hug kar sakta hu?? Please
    Sana went into his arms and they hugged each other tightly. They felt so complete after such a long time. She came out of his arms, took his face in her hand, kissed his forehead and then his both cheeks.
Sana: Happy birthday.
    They sat quietly for a while. The atmosphere around them had grown more intense now.
Sana: Siddharth mai tujhse kuch mangu??
    Sid's heart started beating faster. He was scared. If she asks for something which he too wants so badly, he will not be able to say no. He panicked.
Sid: Kya??
Sana: Mai jo mangne jaa rahi hu na siddharth, vo apni self respect apne swabhimaan ko side me rakh kar mang rahi hu.
Sid: Sana please....
Sana: Please meri baat sun le. Beech me mat bol.
Sid: Thek hai bol.
    He sat upright. He felt his heart would pop out anytime now.
Sana: Mai jaanti hu tu mera kabhi nhi ho sakta. Vo tu ne muje clearly samjha diya tha nau saal pehle. Aur mai uske sath jeena seekh chuki hu. Par mai yeh tere zindagi ke 13 din chati hu. 13 din ke leye mera ho jaa. Muje jee lenede khushi se isse. Fir mai chali jaaungi aur tujhse kabhi kuch nhi mangungi.
Sid: Aur Sana 13 din baad??
Sana: Muje pata hai, taklif hogi bahot, par thek hai. Mai sah lungi. Par muje tujhse yeh 13 din chahiye siddharth.
Sid: Itna aasaan nhi hoga chodna
Sana: Meri zindagi kab aasaan rahi hai?? Bas shaadi hone tak mera hoja.
     Sid brushed his fingers in his hair and his face. She was asking him to be hers. But hasn't he always been hers. This is going to bring a lot and lot of pain in both their lives in future. He looked at her and was about to refuse to this absurd idea, but saw her innocent, beautiful face, which he loved so much and that mesmerizing, but now pleading eyes. He can never so no to her. He too wanted it as badly as she did. These 13 days. Sana will be of Sid and Sid will be of Sana's. They will live their whole life in these 13 days. He took her by her arms and pulled her to him. She hugged him tightly kissing his cheek. He felt his eyes were wet with tears.
Sid: I know this is absurd. But I too want this baby.
    Siddharth leaned back on the pillows behind, sitting comfortable taking Sana in his arms. Her head on his chest their fingers entwined. Both not able to say anything to the other.
Sana: Siddharth ek baat puchu??
Sid: Hmmm
Sana: Tu ne itne dino me ek baar bhi muje yaad nhi kiya?? Tune na muje call kiya na message.
    Sid did not answer her.
Sana: Muje pata hai tune muje Canada me dekh leya tha.
    She felt his body stiffen under her.
Sana: Tu us waqt bhi mujse baat karne nhi aaya.
Sid: Tu kyu nhi aayi??
Sana: Kyuki tu nhi chahta tha. Tune muje clearly bol diya tha.
Sid: Accha to tu meri itni baat maanti the??
Sana: Tune muje dur rehne ko kaha tha tujhse. Rahi na dur??
    Sid didn't reply. " Zindagi me meri koi baat nhi mani. Aur vo maan le jo mai mean nahi karta tha. Wah re meri kismat " He thought. He pulled her closer as if not wanting her to go away again from her. The owner of the dhabha brought a cake for him. He keeps it on the table in front of them. Smiles and leaves.
Sana: Yeh banda tumko jaanta hai.
Sid: Ha, mai yaha aksar aata hu. Sana tuje yeh jagah yaad nhi hai?? Hum ek baar pehle bhi yaha aaye hai.
    Sana looked around and realised they both had come here once before. It was the place, where..... How can she forget. It was night when Sana was  angry on Sid for something and to set her mood he had taken her to a drive. They had ended up here to drink tea. After having tea, Sid got up to leave when Sana pulled him down. She had worn shorts and t- shirt. His mind was getting too distracted by her legs. He wanted to take her home, before he does something foolish. He sat next to her again, feeling frustrated now.
Sid: Bakoo??
Sana: Siddharth muje kiss kar.
Sid: Shut up Sana aur chal yaha se.
Sana: Nahi tu pehle muje kiss kar.
    Sid knew, she won't get up until he kisses her. He brought his lips to her cheek and kissed it. As he was about to kiss the other one, she turned her face and he ended up touching her lips with his. He withdrew immediately. She had smiled, that cute smile. He got up, took her hand and led her to the car. His body was on fire then. He had brought her home and angrily told her to go to her room immediately.
    Sana remember that day and she turned red. She looked away, but Sid pulled her closer and kissed her both cheeks. Then their eyes locked both wanting more.