Unspoken Past (Completed)

Nok Jhok

Sana had left to the room as Sid was talking to Viju. She went and lay on Sid's side of the bed. She could smell him there. Sid entered, saw Sana sleeping on his side. He smiled and went to the washroom to change. He came back to see Sana still on his side. He came to the bed.
Sid: Sana apne side pe jaa.
Sana: Nahi mujhe aaj yahi sona hai.
Sid: Kyu??
Sana: Meri marzi.
Sid: Are aise kaise teri marzi?? Yeh mera side hai, Tu ekdum se aise he mere side pe nhi so sakti.
Sana: Mai aise kar sakti hu. Aaj mera mann yaha sone ka ho raha hai, to Mai yahi sooungi.
Sid: Yeh acchi zabardasti hai. Dekh agar ab tu nhi uthi, to Mai sofe pe so jaaunga.
Sana: Thek hai. To jaa. So jaa sofe pe. Par aaj raat to Mai yahi sooungi.
Sid pulled his pillow from under her. Her head pumped on the mattress.
Sana: Ouchh Siddharth laga mujhe.
Sid: Accha ho gaya.
Sana: Loser.
Sid: Tu.
He went and lay on the sofa, popping his pillow under him. He twist and turned. The sofa was very uncomfortable. He got up and went back to the bed.
Sid: Mai kyu sofe pe sounga?? Mai bed pe sounga.
Sana did not reply. She was awake but did not open her eyes. She was having fun, looking at this baby side of Sid. He lay next to her on her side of the bed. After a few minutes, he pulled her to him and she rested her head on his chest. And he felt at peace.
It was three thirty at night. Sana was not able to sleep properly. She felt awkward sleeping at this side of the bed. She decided to go back to her place.
Sana: Siddharth.....
Sid: Hmmm.
Sana: Sun na.
Sid: Ab kya hai??
Sana: Mujhe iss side neend nhi aa rahi hai.
Sid: Kya??
Sana: Mai iss side so nhi paa rahi hu.
Sid: Yarr Sana, kya hai tera. Kitna pareshaan karti hai tu mujhe. Ab kya karna hai. Bolo. Kya karna chahti hai tu.
Sana: Vo mujhe apni jagah par jaana hai.
Sid: Accha?? Itna to drama kiya. Ab wapas yaha aana hai??
Sana: Siddharth, drama kya yaar. Mera mann hua to yaha so gayi. Aise bhi kya hai. Mai mere marzi nhi kar sakti kya??
Sid: Aur ab madam ke marzi hai ke madam ko yaha sona hai.
Sana nodded her head.
Sid: Thek hai fir aa jaau madamji. So lo jaaha sona hai.
Sana: Dekh kaise gande gande muh bana raha hai.
Sid: To ab raat ke char baje bhangda karu tere leye??
Sana: Nahi bas tu apne jagah par chala jaa. Meri jagah se uth. Khamkha meri neend kharaab kar raha hai.
Sid: Mai kharab kar raha hu??
Sana: Nahi to kya Mai??
Sid: Nahi nahi mai he. Sorry madam maaf kar dina.
Sana: Accha theek hai maaf kiya. Chal so jaa ab.
Sid: Sana you are impossible.
Sana: I know.
Sid chuckled, got up and went to his side. He looked at her and she was hiding her smile and they both burst out laughing. He then took her in his arms and gave her a hungry kiss.
Sana: Iss doctor se to baat karni he padegi.
Sid laughed out loud, took her and lay on the bed with her in his arms. He so wanted to make love to her. Controlling was now being next to impossible. But he will have to. He closed his eyes, knowing sleep was nowhere near.
It's been three days. Sana has spoken to the doctor on the phone. She was out of town for conference and she has told Sana to come to the clinic after five days. She will have to check her properly before giving her a thumbs up. Sana was disappointed as Sid will be leaving before she meets the doctor.
Sid: Are itna kyu upset ho rahi hai meri jaan. Mai next week aaunga na. Tab tak tu doctor se mil ke aana. Koi baat nhi baba. Itna mat sooch. Samjhi mere baby ke mama.
Today was Monday. Sid had to leave on Thursday. He has his last minute meetings. He had finished his breakfast and was getting ready for the meeting.
Sana: Siddharth tujse baat karni hai.
Sid: Bol na baby.
Sana: Siddharth yaha aane se pehle mere ek music company se baat chal rahi the. Ek hindi film song ke recording ke leye. Mere manager ka kal call aaya tha. Vo mujse milna chahte hai.
Sid: Baby, Tu iss halat me kar paaegi??
Sana; To kya tu nhi chahta ke mai karu??
Sid came to her took her face in his hand and looked in her eyes.
Sid: Sana maine tujhe pehle he kaha hai ke tujhe mujse koi bhi cheez ke leye permission nhi leni hai. Tujhe agar lagta hai ke tu kar sakti hai, to tu kar. Mera concern sirf teri health hai. Sana: I love you baby.
Sid: I love you too meri jaan. Par yeh baat hame ghar wale se bhi discuss karni padegi na??
Sana: Tu baat karega??
Sid: Ha kar lunga mai baat. Par mujhe promise kar. You will not over do anything.
Sana: I promise. Dekh na tu jaata hai to mere paas kuch nhi hota karne ke leye. Mai bore ho jaati hu. Aur ab parso tu Dubai jaa raha hai. Pura din mai kya karungi??
Sid: Ha mai samaj raha hu baby. Kab bola hai meeting ka??
Sana: Vo to mere call ka wait kar rahe hai.
Sid: Thek hai pehle hum ghar me baat karte hai. Fir tu call kar le.
Sana: Thank you Siddharth.
Sid: Tu pagal hai kya baby. Thank you kya hai. Tera bhi career hai. And you have the right to take your decisions. Chal ab mujhe kiss kar.
Sana brought her lips to his. Kissing him slowly, nibbling on his lower lip. She had come to know of his weakness now. He gets excited when she does that. His breath got heavier. He brought his hand to her waist and picked her up. She encircled her legs around his hips. She teased his tongue with hers.
Sid: Baby please yaar. Don't do this.
Sana: Kya??
Sid: I'm already losing control meri jaan. Please aise mat kar.
Sana: Siddharth mujhe abhi karna hai.
Sid: Aise mat kar baby. Thoda wait kar. I know how you are feeling darling.
He made her sit on the sofa and was about to remove his arms.
Sana: Nahi...
Sid: Are baby, mai meeting ke leye late ho raha hu.
Sana: Nahi jaa meeting me.
Sid: Ab yeh kya zidd hai??
Sana: Maine kaha na, tu mat jaa.
Sid: Aise mat kar meri jaan. Bahot important hai.
Sana: Nahi na Siddharth. Abhi cancel kar de sham me chala jaana.
Sid: Sweetheart, log meeting ke leye pahuch gaye honge. Mai already late hu. Ab kaise cancel karu.
Sana: Tu meri baat kabhi nhi maanta.
Sid: Ab aise mat bol. Maanta to hu. Accha chal tujhe dinner pe le chalta hu sham me.
Sana: Thek hai jaa. Par jaldi aana hai. Hum sath lunch karenge. Siddharth tu jab tak nhi aayega mai lunch nhi karungi. Fir aakar mujhe mat daatna ke kyu nhi khaaya.
Sid: Ok baba. I promise mai jaldi aa jaaunga.
Sid kissed her forehead and left. Sana could still not believe her life could be so much beautiful. She was married to the love of her life. Siddharth. His love his everything. And the best part is, that he too loved her so immensely. And now she was carrying his baby. She was having the privilege of carrying the baby of such a wonderful man. He was such a through gentleman and a great human being. And he was her life. She had loved him all her life, but when did he start loving me?? A thought came to her mind. He has never told her about his life after he had removed her from his nine years ago?? Why?? She pushed the thought away. She trusts her husband and nothing can come between both of them from now on. She told herself firmly.