Unspoken Past (Completed)

Hungry For Each Other

  Frustrated Sid had ordered Pizza and Sana has ate it making all sort of noises, irritating him more. He so wanted to throw that pizza and eat her. Sana has wanted to drink tea, so she went to the kitchen to prepare it. Sid was sitting on the sofa in the balcony. Why was she pushing him away. He so want to have her. But he can't just force her. He knew she was teasing him, but he too has decided that he will not take a step further until she asks for it. She came with the tea, gave him the mug and sat on his lap with hers. They drank in silence. Sana shifted a bit on his lap.
Sid: Thek se bait baby.
Sana: Kya?? Thek se he to baiti hu. Itna irritate kyu ho raha hai??
Sid: Tuje pata hai tu kya kar rahi hai aur mai kyu irritate ho raha hu.
Sana: Mai kya kar rahi hu. Kuch bhi to nhi. Bas aise he ilzaam lagata hai mujpe.
    And she shifted again.
Sid: Sana ab agar tu hili na to Mai tuje balcony se utha kar neeche fek dunga.
Sana: Accha accha thek hai. Sadu kahi ka.
Sid: Accha mai sadu aur tu jo harkate kar rahi hai, vo tuje dikh nhi rahi hai?? Ek to thek se kiss bhi nhi karne de rahi hai muje.
     Sana bend down and gave him a passionate kiss. They both finished their tea and Sana lay in Sid's arms on the sofa. Sid was having a lot of difficulty controlling himself, but he won't until she wants to. They lay there looking at the moon.
Sana: Siddharth maine tera interview dekha aaj ka.
Sid: Hmmm.
Sana: Mai kuch puchu tu sach sach jawaab dega??
Sid: Ha puch??
Sana: Tu sach me hamare shaadi se khush hai??
Sid: Tuje kya lagta hai baby??
Sana: Tu bata.
Sid: kya Mai tuje khush nhi lagta??
Sana: Yeh sawaal hua. Muje jawab chahiye.
Sid: Baby Mai bahot khush hu.
Sana: Siddharth mera to tuje pata hai ke Mai to bachpan se tujse pyaar karti hu. Tere alaawa maine kisise pyaar kiya he nhi hai. Mere leye pyaar ke shuruwat bhi tu hai aur ant bhi tu. Par tune to majburi me he shaadi ke na mujse?? Fir tu kaisi kehta hai ke tu khush hai?? Tu to mujse kabhi bhi rishta nhi rakhna chahta tha na he tu shaadi karna chahta tha. Fir kyu itna khush??
    Sid was overwhelmed by the love she has for him. He was her only love. This made Sid's eyes wet. He was so lucky to have so much love of the person whom he loves so immensely.
Sid: Baby Mai tujse kuch...
Sana: Nahi mat bata. Shaayad muje tera jawaab nhi pasand aaye. Muje yeh sooch ke khush rehne de ke tune mujse khushi se shaadi ke.
    Sid held he tighter.
Sid: Baby maine tujse khushi se he shaadi ke.
Sana: Sacch??
Sid: Bilkul sacch.
Sana: I love you.
    She was so happy she hugged him tightly with excitement. Sid wanted to tell her about her dad's promise, but didn't wanted to ruin her happiness. They both lay there in each other's arms hands and legs entwined lost in thoughts. Sid felt Sana's breath getting steady. She had dozed off.
Sid: Baby. Tuje neend aa rahi hai. Chal andar sote hai.
Sana: Hmmmm
Sid: Uth jaa meri jaan.
     Sid made her sit, got up and picked her in his arms. She rested her head on his shoulder encircling her hands around his neck. He took her to the bed and made he lay down, putting a blanket on her and adjusting the ac. Sid has got restless now. He needs to tell Sana about the fact that his dad's promise had kept him away from her for so many years. He had equally loved her for past nine years. This has to come out. He will have to tell her. But he was scared. Scared of her reaction. Which he was sure was not going to be a good one. They both had gone through a lot in past few days. He wants some peace for few days. They were enjoying their just married phase. He didn't want any distraction. He will tell her later. Not much people know about this. Adi and Pari will never tell Sana. He had already told them not too. He will call Sana's dad and tell him not to tell anything about it to Sana yet. He will when he feels the time is right. He needed a smoke. This thought has unsettled him. He went to the balcony. As he was about to finish he heard Sana screamed out his name. He ran inside to find Sana sitting upright soaked in sweat and crying loudly. He rushed towards her and took her in his arms hugging her to him soothing her back to calm her down.
Sid: Baby.... Shhhhh.... Kya hua meri jaan.... Kuch sapna dekha...
Sana: Tu thek hai na Siddharth??? Tuje kuch hua to nhi??
     She started crying again and checking Sid with her hand and eyes as if she wants to see if he was hurt somewhere.
Sid: Mai thek hu baby. Mujhe kya hua hai?? Chup ho jaa. Ruk tuje pani deta hu mai.
     He removed her hand from his arms, poured water in the glass and gave her. She took it with shaking hands and drank it. Sid was worried for her. He had forgot to ask her, why was she waking up like this in the middle of the night?? This was the second time since they have come home. Sana had calmed down and was lying in Sid's arms, resting her head on his chest.
Sid: Baby kya hua hai tuje?? Kyu itna darr ke tu uth jaati hai. Yeh yaha aane ke baad dusri baar hua hai.
Sana: Siddharth kuch dino se mai ek bahot bura sapna dekh rahi hu.
Sid: Batana chahegi muje?? Agar mann ho to bata, nhi to baad me batana.
Sana:Mere sapne me mai dekhti hu ke hum dono ek bade pahaad par khade hai. Ek dusre ko dekh muskuraa rahe hai, aur fir achanak mai tuje dakka de deti hu aur tu khaai me gir jaata hai. Thodi der baad me muje ehsaas hota hai ke maine kya kiya and aur mai tuje dund ne lag jaati hu. Tuje kitna pukaarti hu. Par tu mujhe milta he nhi. Baby muje bahot darr lagta hai uss sapne se. Muje nahi dekhna hai vo sapna.
    She started crying loudly again. He pulled her closer to him.
Sid: Shhh mat ro meri jaan. Vo ek sapna hai na?? Kuch nhi. Dekh mai hu na tere sath tere paas??
Sana: Tu kaha gaya tha?? Tu paas ho to nhi aata mujhe vo sapna.
Sid: Mai yahi hu baby. Mai yahi hu. Yaha aane ke baad he aa rahe hai kya??
Sana: Nahi uss din. Hamari first night, jab tu Udaipur me hotel room se bahar nikal gaya. Mujhe thodi der ke leye neend lag gayi the. Tab maine yeh sapna pehli baar dekha. Vo hotel room me. Uss raat mujhe bahot darr laga tha Siddharth. Mai tuje call karna chahti the, par khud ko rok liya.
    There was so much pain in her voice. She was crying and his heart was bleeding. She has gone through so much because of him and her dad's promise. She is not going to take it lightly when she comes to know about it.
Sid: I'm sorry sweetheart. I'm so sorry. Muje uss raat uss hotel room me tujhe chod kar nhi jaana chahiye tha. Mujse galti ho gayi.
Sana: Tu mujhe baar baar chod kar gaya hai Siddharth. Nau saal pehle bhi tu muje chod gaya, fir hum jab udaipur gaye, tab bhi tune he Mujhe choda. Aur fir uss room me bhi tu he chod gaya mujhe. Dar lagta hai muje, ke pata nhi kab tere mann me kuch aa jaaye, kab tera mann mujse uth jaaye aur tu fir chala jaaye, muje akela chod ke.
Sid: Sana tuje sach me lagta hai, ke mere mann tujse uth jaata hai, isleye mai durr hota hu??
Sana: Nahi??
Sid: Bikul nhi.
Sana: To fir??
Sid: To fir kuch nhi. Ab bahot raat ho gayi hai. Chal soote hai.
Sana: Thek hai.
    She snuggled to him and he smiled.  Sana woke up to see the room empty. Sid must have left for the gym. She got ready and went down to help Maa and Aani for breakfast. The breakfast was all ready and the table was set. Sid has not come yet. She remembered something and went to the garden. She went to the tree, where their names were embarked on that tree. She touched it lovingly. She was in love with such a beautiful man. She loved him so much. For her love means Siddharth. She has never known, nor wanted to know anyone else. He was her life. She had worn a white lucknowi kurti with a white pant. She say a white rose and plucked it to put it in her hair.
    She thought of calling Pari to plan for tonight. They spoke and planned everything. Adi has suggested they include Sid's manager in their plan. Sana was ok with it. Everything was decided and she was damn excited about it. She was talking to Pari, when she felt two arms come from behind and pulled her towards it. She screamed and her mobile fell down. She instantly realised it was Sid.
Sana: Pagal hai tu Siddharth. Dar gayi mai.
    She removed his arms and picked up the mobile.
Sana: Sorry Pari vo Sid ne....
Sid: Ha ha bol Pari ko maine kya kiya.
Sana: Pari mai tujse, baad me baat karti hu.
    She disconnected the call and Sid pulled her to him.
Sid: Are wah kya khubsurat lag rahi ho aap Sana madam.
    Sana blushed.
Sid: Tu roz aisi he dekha kar, kal Adi ne bola ab sab muje juru ka gulaam bolne lag jaayenge.
Sana: To apne aakho aur harkato ko control me rakh. Maine kya kiya. Muje mat bol.
Sid: Tu ne kya kiya?? Yeh jo roz subah itni acchi tu dekhti hai, mai apna sab kaam vaam chod kar ghar he bait jaaunga. Fir yeh mat bolna ke mera pati kuch kamata nhi hai.
Sana: Siddharth chod pagal, hum yaha garden me hai, koi dekh lega.
Sid: Koi nhi dekhta. Aur dekhta hai to dekhne do. Bhai shaadi ke hai. Haq se apne biwi ko baho me leya hua hai.
Sana: Accha chal bass ho gaya. Jaa fresh ho aa. Kab se wait kar rahi hu. Bhuk lagi hai mujhe.
Sid: Mujhe bhi. Chal upar.
Sana: Shut up. Jaa na Siddharth bahot pareshaan karta hai tu.
Sid: Thek hai thek hai jaa raha hu. Saare romance ki aisi ke taisi kar deti hai mere. Vaisi tu yaha kya kar rahi the??
    Sana pointed towards the tree.
Sana: Hamara naam dekhne aayi the.
    Sid looked at the tree and went to it. He traced what was written with his fingers, pulled her closer and smashed his lips to hers. He kissed her so passionately and she moaned with hunger. He removed her from his arms and kissed her forehead.
Sid: Aata hu ten minutes me. Tuje bhuk lagi hai na??
    Sana nodded and he walked to their room. He needed a cold shower immediately. His body was on fire and he was so so hungry for his wife.