Unspoken Past (Completed)

Kon Sahi. Kon Galat.

It's been seventeen days. Sid has returned to Mumbai from mohali. He has not called her even once since then. He had been disturbed. Sana's accusations had made him really angry this time. The next morning when he was having breakfast, Reet was looking at him with concern in her eyes. Maa was sitting next to him.
Maa: Siddharth Tu thek hai?? Buja buja sa lag raha hai.
Sid: Ha Maa thek hu. Bas thodi thakaan lag rahi hai. Thek se neend nhi hue isliye.
Maa: Aaraam kiya kar na beta zara. Jab dekho tab bhaga bhagi. Bas kar ab. Sana aayegi to bhi tu yahi karega kya??
Baba: Siddharth Sana kab aa rahi hai?? Thek hai vo?? Ghar me kisine uski khabar le ya nhi??
Reet: Bhaisaab vo.... Aa jayegi. Kal he baat hue meri. Abhi uska kaam hone ko hai. Boli ke thode dino me aa jaayegi.
Baba: Thek hai. Rita shaam me call lagana usse. Mai bhi baat karunga.
Maa: Accha laga dungi.
Baba: Aur Siddharth jab vo aane ka bole to usse lene jaana. Aise akele mat aane bolna usse.
Sid: Jee baba.
    Baba and Chachu left for office. All got up one by one and left the dining table. The only remaining there was Reet and Sid. Sid was lost in thoughts, toying with his food. Reet came and sat in front of him.
Reet: Siddharth tere aur Sana ke beech jo bhi hua vo didi (Sana's mummy) ne mujhe bataya. Tu mohali gaya tha na kya hua??
    Sid looked at Reet with shock in his eyes.
Sid: Chachi Maa Baba ko mat batana.
Reet: Mai kisiko nhi bataungi beta. Tu chinta mat kar. Kya ho raha hai yeh sab. Itne saalo se yeh sab chal raha hai aur humko pata bhi nhi hai. Tu itna pyaar karta hai usse, itne saalo se hum to jaante bhi nhi the. Kyu itni duri aur dard hai tumhari zindagi me fir ab??
Sid: Mujhe samaj he nhi aa raha ke meri kaha aur kya galti ho gayi hai. Bahot thak gaya hu mai ab. Pata nhi kuch thek he nhi hota hai hamare beech chachi.
Reet: Tu ne usse aise he chod nhi aana chahiye tha.
Sid: To kya karta?? Zabardasti utha ke le aata. Usne jo mujhe baate kahi hai na... Chodo chachi aap tension mat lo dekhte hai kya hota hai.
Chachi: Thoda time de beta usse. Gusse me hai vo ab.
Sid: Hmmm.
He didn't wanted to argue with chachi. But he was hurt too. Pari had come when she learnt he has come back from mohali. Sid was sitting on the terrace. He was having an headache.
Pari: Bhai kya hua?? Aap Sana ko nahi laaye.
Sid: Pari Sana koi choti bacche nhi hai ke mai usse godh me utha ke laata.
Pari: Bhai kya hua hai??
Sid: Sana madam ke hisaab se mai ek mauke ka fayda uthane wala insaan hu.
Pari: Bhai gusse me bol diya hoga. Aap kab se itni baate mann pe lene lag gaye??
Sid: Kyuki uski baate chubti hai mujhe Pari. Mai bahot pyaar karta hu usse. Kyu mera pyaar dekhayi nhi deta?? Mai maanta hu kehna zaruri hota hai. Par kya har cheez kehne par he samji jaati hai. Ya to fir yeh ho sakta hai ke mai usse kuch feel he nhi karata. Mera kuch bhi karna usse dekhai he nhi deta.
Pari: Bhai vo naraaz to hogi na usse vo promise ke baare me pata chalega to.
Sid: Uske papa ne le the vo promise mujse. Aur vo uske papa hai Pari. Vo galat nhi the uss waqt. Jab Ruhi ke sath yeh sab hua tha to hum kitne pareshaan hue the. Uss waqt Sana Ruhi se bhi choti the yaar. Unhone jab mujhe apna concern bataya to mujhe bahot sharmindgi hue. Mujhe laga ke kahi mai ek maasoom ladki ke emotions ka fayda to nhi utha raha?? Mai guilty feel karne laga. Aur maine usse waqt jo kiya vo sahi tha. Ha mai apne aap ko usse pyaar karne se rok nahi paaya par, usse us waqt apni se durr karne me maine koi galti nhi ke.
Pari: Par bhai fir udaipur me to aap uske paas aaye na??
Sid: Ha nahi aana chahiye tha. Par vaha mai thoda selfish ho gaya. Mujhe meri khushi mil rahi the. Mai kheecha chala gaya. Uske papa ko diye hue promise ko ignore kar gaya mai. Kya karu?? Kamzor pad gaya. Vo hamesha kehti hai na ke vo mujse bahot pyaar karti hai, par Pari Tu bata kya vo mujpe trust karti hai?? Thoda bhi bharosa nhi hai usko mujpe. Kuch thoda bhi ho jaaye to itna bura bol deti hai ke jaise mai ek gira hua insaan hu. Maine uska hath thama to kehti hai, vo isleye kiya ke mujhe mahaan banne ka shauk hai. Zidd me aakar do din me uss Aahaan se shaadi karne chali the. Vo chod gaya to mai kaisi na apnata usse.  Bahot zyaada Pyar karta hu usse.
Pari: Par aapne usse bola to nahi na bhai. Yeh baate bolne padti hai. Aap bas mauka dhundte reh gaye. Aur jab yeh bola to vo yakeen kaise kare??
Sid: Hamare maamle me sirf I love you bolna kaafi nhi tha Pari. Sab kuch uske pehle aur baad ka bhi clear karna tha na. Aur aise nhi hai ke maine try nhi kiya. Par agar vo khud abhi nhi sunna chahti the aur maine bhi force nhi kiya, yehi reaction se darta tha mai. Chod Pari, ab mai bhi hurt hua hu. Mai usse aane ka keh aaya hu. Ab nhi manaunga mai.
Pari: Bhai vo bhi to manati hai na aapko.
Sid: Par mai usse kabhi dil dukhane wali baat nhi kehta. Vo mujhe apne baato se bahot hurt karti hai Pari.
Pari: Pata nhi bhai kon Sahi kon galat. Par ho to ek he na dono.
Sid: Hai ek hum Pari?? Kya pata. Chod jaane de. Tu tension mat le. Jab hona hoga, sab thek ho jaayega. Mere leye chai bol de zara. Sir me bahot dard ho raha hai.
Sid had not spoken to Sana in these days. He had dialled her number many times, but had disconnected it. And then when he had asked about that project of them together she had rudely replied. He had, had it all. He would ask chachi if she was ok. He came to know from chachi that she had come to her dad's house and had taken her things and left again. She is alone there. How can you leave her alone. Go to her. Make her come with you. No I won't. I had told her to come. But she is always stubborn. I'm not going to melt this time. His heart had argued with his brain so many times. He will be going to Dubai for two days tomorrow. He wanted to inform her, but then decided against it. He knew she will not respond. Then what is the use of telling. He saying this to himself has satisfied his big fat ego.
Sana was now pacing the floor. She went to her friend, who is a gynac and took medicine for her nausea. She could still not believe she is going to be a mother. She picked up the mobile to call Sid, but her ego won't allow her to. Why should she always take the first step. Why is it only she who should go to him, in spite of he always pushing her away?? No she won't. She will not call him or make the first move. She knew her baby needs both their parents and it will get both it's parents, but she doesn't have to compromise on her self respect. She will go to Mumbai. Stay with him. But not as his wife. But as his baby's would be mother. She will not give in this time. He had left. This time too. Without a backward glance. She was angry, very angry and hurt, because she felt betrayed. Agreed she had said inappropriate words to him. She shouldn't have said it. But she had said it to punish him as she felt cheated. And so he left. Knowing she is all alone here. Then why shouldn't she doubt his love. How can she trust him. He had always left her. Not knowing how much it hurts. This time she won't go to him. She will go to her baby's papa, just because her baby needs him. She will decide about their relationship after the baby is born. She will see what her future holds for her, after she gives birth to the baby. A hand automatically comes to her stomach, as if protecting it. She will leave for Mumbai in this week itself. She will have to inform about it to her mummy. But she will when she reaches Mumbai airport, because she knew she will tell Aani about her coming to Mumbai and Sid may come to pick her up and she didn't want any  favour from him. Whatever it is, he can give it to their child, but nothing to her. She won't take it. She thought. Maa had called.
Maa: Kaisi hai beta??
Sana: Mai theek hu Maa. Aap kaisi ho??
Maa: Mai bhi acchi hu. Teri awaaz kyu aisi aa rahi hai?? Tabiyat to thek hai na??
Sana: kuch nhi Maa gala kharaab hai.
Maa: Khayaal rakh beta apna. Tu kab aa rahi hai??
Sana: Bahot jald Maa. Maa mai aau na??
Maa: Kya?? Yeh kaisa sawaalon hai beta. Tu tere ghar nhi aayegi to kaha jaayegi. Jaldi aaja. Ab iss ghar ke zimmedaari tuje he sambhalni hai. Vaisi usse batana mat par teri Aani ab budi ho gayi hai.
    Sana laughed loudly. And Maa felt happy to hear her laughter. She loved this girl too much.
Sana: Maa agar Aani ko pata chala na ke aapne yeh kaha hai unko to heart attack he aana hai.
Maa: Sahi kaha. Nahi pehle to beauty parlour bhagegi vo. Dekhne kahi sach me budi to nhi dekh rahi hai.
Sana: Ha sahi kaha.
Maa: Chal aaja tu jaldi se. Vaisi Siddharth bhi aa jaayega do din me.
Sana: Kya.... Kaha.... Se??
Maa: Vo Dubai gaya hai na?? Tuje bola nhi??
Sana: Ha ha pata hai Maa. Mujhe thek se sunai nhi diya. Ha bola mujhe aayega do din me. Thek hai Maa rakhti hai. Call karti hu baad me.
    Sana disconnected the call. She was devastated. He left for Dubai. Didn't even bother to inform her. She was nothing to him. Tears started streaming down her checks. He doesn't value her. Should she go to Mumbai. She will have to. Her baby was more important then her self-  respect. She will leave tomorrow. All her work was done here. She had to just pack a few things. She called her agent and booked a ticket to Mumbai.