I avoided Harley whole day today and I switch off my phone when it keeps vibrating. Must be messages from Harley. I don't have the energy to talk to anyone. I just cried my eyes out in the toilet after what happened in the cafeteria until the bell rang reminding that recess is over. I rushed to my next class after applying my make up again so that my swolen eyes and red nose don't visible.
I sigh when my last class for today ended finally. I tidy up my things and put them in my bag. I don't have extra class for maths today since Casey is busy with her project and I respect her time. Not that I am in a good mood too. All I want now is go home and sleep. Just be alone is enough.
But, before I can step out of the already empty classroom, someone comes in my way. Natasha.
"Hi, little girl. How are you?" She says with her annoyingly hideous voice. Whoa, I must hate her so much.
I'm not in the mood to fight with her, and just looking at her makes my heart shatters the second time.
"Good, Natasha. You?" I reply lazily.
"Oh, me? Of course I'm more than happy today. I believe you have read the news. Everyone did. And it shows that I win. I can't be any happier." She laughs with that ugly laugh, just makes me want to vomit at her statement.
"Well, congrats to you both. Now, if you can excuse me, could you please move a little? I want to go home. I don't want to use your time. I believe you have someone to spend your time with. Thank you in advance." I make my own way pass her not minding if I brush her shoulder intentionally. I just don't want to look at her.
"Abby!" She calls out behind me and I stop. I don't turn my face to her. I just stop there.
"I told you before to not disturb my Ryan. Now, it stays like that. He's mine. Just stop ogling over him because you will only look desperate." She adds to make my anger rises.
I am angry but I am not stupid like her. I gulp down my saliva, trying to stay calm and close my eyes for a while. This time, I turn to face her.
"I don't think you should worry about that. Because I won't. But, I'm afraid that your Ryan will search for me instead. And you can't help but look..." I lean to her ear to whisper my last word, "...useless."
I smirk to her one last time before continuing to make my way out of the school. Ugh, I hate her.
I don't even know where I get the courage to talk like that.
When I'm almost at my car, (well, yes now I drive my own car since I don't want to burden my Mom to send me and fetch me up) I see someone stands beside my car. I stop halfway to look at him look at me. I don't make any expression and keep cool.
Ryan look at me back and his eyes soften.
Don't look at his eyes. You will fall for it.
"Excuse me? That's my car. And I need to go home. So, I would really appreciate it if you give me a way?" I say more like a question. I pretend like nothing happened when in fact I know he knew that I know about him and Natasha already. Sounds complicated.
"Abby, can you please listen to me first?" He makes a step towards me. I believe there are a lot of eyes around us now since everyone knows he is Natasha's boyfriend. And our close distance must have been a question to them. So I take a step back.
"I don't think you owe me any explanation. So, can you just-" I try to walk pass him. But, duh. He's mascular of course I won't pass. He grabs my wrist in his hand instead.
"Abby, please." He tightens her grip but not hurting me.
"Ryan, it's okay. Just be happy with anyone. I'm still your friend. Only if you still consider me as one." I slow down my voice at the last sentence.
"You know that's not what I mean, A. I wouldn't choose Natasha over... you."
Okay, so now he's trying to get me when he already has Natasha? As much as I don't want to deny that I have feelings for him, I also still have dignity not to ruin someone else's relationship. I didn't expect him to be like this.
"Ryan, stop playing with my feelings. Now, let me go. Everyone is watching." I say, not daring to look at his eyes.
He looks around us and he must just realized that we got a lot of attention.
"But, I-" He shakes his head but I interject him.
"If you can't respect my feelings, please at least respect your girlfriend's." I look hard into his eyes.
I slowly take his right hand that is around my wrist to let go of it. I swear I see the hurt in his eyes which I think just reflect mine. When I finally free myself from his grip, I get into my car and drive back home while crying. By the time I get home, I am a sobbing mess. I grip the steering wheel so hard and lean my forehead against it.
If I know that falling for someone will hurt, I would never let myself jump.
*****
"Abby, let's eat. I make your favourite food." I hear Mom's knock on my door when I step outside from the bathroom.
"Okay, Mom. I'm getting dress first. Wait for me downstairs." I reply and hear an okay from her.
I decided to wear a shorts and a t-shirt that falls at my shoulders. After doing my hair in a low bun, I make my way downstairs to eat dinner. From the second stairs, I can already smell lasagna, exactly my favourite food. And Mom makes the best lasagna in town.
When I sit at the table, Mom puts a plate in front of me. I smile and said a little thank you. I take a knife and start cutting lasagna into small pieces. This time, I put the first cut to Mom's plate. When she comes back to the table with two glasses, she says while pouring us some cold water, "You okay? You've been quite today."
I nod a little and smile. Of course she knows something is not right. She is my Mom by the way.
Before she could say something, I talk first, saying "I met William and Mr Xavier yesterday. After tennis. They play there too. And they kind of invited me, I mean us, for a game some other time. is that okay with you?" Then, I took a bite of my lasagna.
"Oh, George told me this morning about yesterday. But he didn't mention about any invitation. Well, I'm actually okay with it. Any weekend will work though." She smiles when she heard about it.
"Okay, that's great. I believe William will call me anytime soon." I nod.
"Do I sense something going on between you and Mr Xavier?" I ask her again, making her choke on her food. I just smirk looking at her reaction which shows there is something.
She coughs and gulp down her water before answering my question.
"We-well, he's a close friend, I could say. I think because we've known each other for quite some time, and maybe that's why I feel more comfortable around him" She smiles.
"Mom, I don't mind if he is 'someone' to you. I just want to see you happy." I squeeze her hand in mine.
"I know, honey. Thank you." She squeezes my hand back.
"And with that being said, why are you sad? I want to see you happy too. And it doesn't seem like you are right now. What happened, Abby?" She won't let me off the hook. She is my mother, she knows when something is not right. Mother's instinct.
But, instead of talking about Ryan, I ask her, "Mom, do you have anything you want to tell me? Like, something important?"
She freezes.
I know she knows what I meant.
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