A Lost Object [h.s]

Chapter 46

Aurora

I had to get that thought out of my mind. What if it wasn't even true? Even if it was, what was I to do? Harry would never admit to something like that let alone leave someone he loves, if true, for someone he is being forced to marry. "What has got you in deep thought?" I opened my eyes at the sound of Harry's voice. We were currently in my room. He sat on the bed while I laid on his lap. I looked up at him as he stared down at me.

"Nothing important" I reassured him. Harry leaned down, gently placing his lips against my forehead. He had let his soft lips liner there for a while before parting. I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion as I smelt a familiar smell on his neck as he pulled back up. I grabbed his hand pulling it to my nose.

"Harry?"

"Hm?"

"Are you wearing my perfume?" He let out a laugh as he nodded. "It smells really good." His laughter was music to my ears. I don't hear it often, reason being he never laughs much. Not around me at least.

"You're something else" I told him. I held on to his hand a little while longer, not wanting to let go. I placed his hand over my chest. My heart was at a steady rate that was until I looked at him once again. I got lost into his beautiful green eyes, Harry stared back at me as the pace of my heart began to pick up. I wanted him to know how he made me feel just by looking at me. It was a feeling I thought I would never get to experience ever again in my life. I infatuated that it was he who made me feel this way once more. I didn't know if Harry understood what I was trying to do. All I could do was hope because I wasn't so good with words. Especially when it comes to expressing my feelings. I don't think I was ready to speak them until I was certain it was time to move on and let go. Although letting go would be difficult, I knew I had to at some point in my life. I couldn't hold onto him forever, as much as I would love to. He wouldn't want that for me.

The moment was gone when Harry's phone started to ring. He looked at the phone with a blank face, quickly silencing it. "I have to go" He says. I pursed my lips to refrain from questioning him, it wasn't any of my business. I sat up from his lap to let him go. He got off the bed, getting ready to leave my room. He stopped at the door and pulled an envelope out of his pocket. He walked back over holding out the envelope for me to take. I took the envelope from him, bidding him a good day before he left. I sat down on the bed taking the letter from the envelope.

"To my future wife,

Ever since I met you, I can only think of your enticing, brown eyes. You filled my heart with unexpected joy and my head with amazing dreams of us together. I dream of us looking at the stars and from time to time I would gently stroke your brown hair while you keep smiling. In moments like these my life would simply be complete. When I'm alone in the quiet, it always feels like I can hear your voice, whispering me sweet nothings, just like the blessed music of a bird. I want to take you away from the ordinary, away from any upset or misfortune. You are the best I ever had and I must be the luckiest person to have you in my life. My love can only grow more and more each day.

All the love, H"

I was lost for words after reading the letter. Did he just confess his feelings to me? I reread it twice more just to make sure I had read it correctly the first and second time around. My love can only grow more and more each day. He loves me. How was I to respond to this? Should I write him a letter back expressing my feelings as well? I jumped at the sound of my door being opened.

Odyssey came into my room with a laugh, "Are you alright?"

"Yes." I folded the letter back up, trying to put it back in the envelope. I put the envelope under my pillow before reverting my attention to Odyssey.

"I haven't seen you in two days. How is everything with Harry and the wedding planning going?" Odyssey asks me. I wanted to tell her about the letter, but I was conflicted. I've never been conflicted about anything when it came to telling my best friend about things going on in my life. Especially big things such as this one. I think I just wanted to be certain that this letter meant what it actually says before jumping to conclusions.

"I think I'm falling for him Odyssey."

"Oh my love, I know you are."

I let out a sigh as I looked at her with confusion "Is this wrong of me? I'm falling for a guy my parents arranged me to marry not long after going through what I did. Am I a horrible person?"

"You're not a horrible person Aurora. We can't always control when and who we fall in love with. Sometimes things just happen and life takes a turn. I promise you, you are in no way, shape or form being disrespectful or betraying. You have to do what makes you happy Aurora and if Harry makes you happy then why let yourself fight it? It's okay to have feelings for him."

Odyssey made a good point, but I still wasn't convinced. If I let myself feel for Harry that would mean I would have to let go of my past and that wasn't something I was ready to do. I took the envelope from under the pillow, giving it to Odyssey. She opened the letter and scanned it with her eyes. "Did he confess his feelings to you?"

"I think so. I was unsure of what to do. Should I write a letter back expressing my feelings as well?"

She shook her head no, "I think the best way to let someone know how you feel about them is face to face. It's more affective."

"Well he's going to be back here tonight, should I do it then"

"Its your choice."