Karma, Bitch! -bxb-

Chapter 30

After this updates will return to normal schedule. Unless I get more free time cuz I gotta cram study.

10 years ago

Danny's POV

"what am I going to do? I'm not ready to be a dad..."  Ben stammered, legs shaking with anxiety and nails broken as a result of his biting. I patted him soothingly, unable to comprehend the situation we are in currently.

We were at the pact's hospital, where Alisha was being checked by the pact's doctor. The four of us could only wait outside as none of us were direct relatives, and were too afraid to call an adult.

"I-it's gonna be alright. Nothing's been confirmed yet." I tried to appear reasurring. I was sure it failed because out of all of us, I was the most anxious. what will happen to Alisha's body? what will happen to Ben? How are they going to deal with this situation? we were only 15 for God's sake!

The door opened to the pact doctor looking a little grim, and the four of us quickly jumped out of our seats. "H-how is she?" Ben quickly asked him. "Are you...the father?" the doctor hesitated. I could feel the tension in the air get heavier as my head cooled down.

"...so it's true?" I asked, seeing Ben frozen in place out of fear. The doctor nodded, pitifully glancing at Ben. In front of us, Derek held Robin in a comforting embrace, as he was too shocked to even stand.

"I...understand this may be a shocking time, but I need to speak with the father and mother separately to discuss this matter now. Before it is too late." he told me, probably noticing that I was the most calm at this situation right now, even though I wasn't.

I nodded, tapping Ben's pack lightly, "you should go." Ben held my hand, "...I can't do this alone. Please, Danny." his pleading eyes cleared my thoughts for a moment, and I decided to join him.

The doctor took us to the room Alisha was in. She was in a hospital gown beside an ultrasound machine, her red eyes filled with tears as she tried to hold in sniffles. At the sight of her, Ben quickly let go of my hand and ran up to hug her, "I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry." he cried. Her small hands clung onto him so desperately, almost like a child clinging onto her mother.

I ripped my gaze from the scene, trying to keep a level head, even though the most I wanted to do right now was join them and cry the nightmares away. I sat beside Alisha's bed, holding her hand in an attempt to calm her down. It seemed to work as they soon stopped crying, only occasional sniffles coming out here and there. "...Stay calm. We need to keep our heads straight until all of this is over, alright?"

The two nodded, wiping away their tears. I tightened my grip on her hand in an attempt to praise her.

Seeing as the two calmed down, the doctor cleared his throat and started speaking, "Alright well, I know this may all be very shocking to all of you, especially since you are all barely 16, and I apologise for being so blunt with you right now, but this. has to be said before any major damage is done." We all gritted our teeth, preparing for the worst.

"The baby...isn't stable." My heart dropped, "w-what do you mean?"

"Well, this is fairly normal in teenage pregnancies, especially since you are both still so young. Your womb hasn't fully developed yet and by the sound of it's pulse, I can tell that the baby doesn't have a strong heartbeat. At any moment, you are at risk of bleeding out, getting a miscarriage, or even dying if the baby isn't taken out. Even if you manage to deliver, I am not confident that the baby will survive the delivery nor live past it's initial months."

Alisha's body trembled profusely as tears streamed harder past her face. She struggled to keep her whimpers and cries quiet as I could tell that she was trying to be strong. Ben continued to hug her tightly along her chest, his expression indicating the amount of pain, guilt, and regret he had for his girlfriend.

I could no longer hold down my tears as I heard the words come out of the doctors mouth. I tried to maintain constant breathing, but would fail to keep it still for more than 5 seconds. This is really happening. Why? Why to us? But most of all right now, why to Alisha?

More than the safety of the baby growing in her stomach, I was terrified of what Alisha would do next. Before anything else, I joined Ben in hugging her, desperate to get my message across to her, 'Don't give up'.

The doctor did not say anything for the next fifteen minutes, only calmly stayed quiet as he let us calm down from our panic. This time, Alisha was the first to do so, patting both Ben and I's back, telling us to let go of her.

In that moment, as I saw her tear stained face trying to act calm and collected, I had never met anyone as beautiful as Alisha was right then. "...what about the chance of an abortion? Are there any risks?"

"There is." the doctor said truthfully, "The abortion could cause permanent damage to your uterus and cause it to be difficult to get pregnant in the future. So, I need to ask, are you ever planning to have children in the far future?"

We all looked at Alisha, who looked at the brink of crashing down, "...yes. I always wanted 2 children."

Ben cried at the sound of her empty voice, "I'm so sorry, Alisha. This is all my fault. Please blame me." Alisha cried, "Of course it's not your fault, you idiot! It's mine! I pushed this on you when you didn't even want to do it, this is just my punishment."

"How could you say that? It took the two of us to make that child, and you know it!"

"Guys!" I interjected, the hot tears running down my face heating up my head, "It's useless to argue about who fault this is now." The two went quiet, eyes unable to look at each other. "...I'm going through with the abortion." Ben's head swung faster than I'd ever seen, "...what? But your wom-" 

"I'll never have children anyway if I'm dead." she stated bitterly. Deep down, I knew this choice was hardest on her than it was to any of us. "I will need the consent of both parents to undergo this procedure."

We all looked at Ben, who was biting his lip anxiously. His eyes were closed shut, as if he was stuck deep in thought, "...I agree."

"Alright, then I will need to ask for the two young men to please step out for a moment." I held Ben hand as I escourted him out. He relunctantly let me pull him out, not letting his gaze off Alisha even for a second. As the door closed, my eyes met Alisha's who was smiling sadly as she mouthed to me, "Thank you".

Behind the door, Ben refused to move from his spot right beside them door, eyes staying downcast. "...This is all my fault."

I sighed, "It was both of your mistake-" A heavy weight suddenly slammed my body against the wall as I flinched. Ben had grown immensely not only in body but also in strength, "This is not Alisha's fault. It was me. She may had suggested it, but I was the one that went through with it. If I hadn't been so fucking weak maybe none of this would've happened. Maybe I wouldn't have had to see her hold down her tears back there in agony, and maybe I wouldn't have ruined her chance at happiness with her own children in the future." his voice was filled with so much malice and disgust as hot tears continuously poured down to his chin.

He dropped me to the floor, leaving me gasping for air. "Ben, calm down" I gasped desperately. He refused to look at me, instead going back to his position beside the door.

From then on my Ben was gone.

Yea so this story took a turn for the worse. But I did say I was trying to make it realistic. Had so much feels writing this story and researching about teenage pregnancy damn T_T