Karma, Bitch! -bxb-

Chapter 5

Robin's POV

"So what are you doing here in the middle of the night?" Derek asked. I ripped my gaze from his eyes, regretting it soon but instead focused on the way the moon shined in the sky, revealing every bump and crease. "I just wanted to watch the moon. Werewolves like to do that you know" I chuckled. He laughed softly. "Can I join you?" he asked as he flicked his chin at the space beside me. I shrugged it off,"If you want. Even if I said no you could order me to allow you anyway."

"I could," he started, "but I wouldn't. I'm too generous for that." I giggled, which shocked the both of us. My face instantly turned red as a smug smile made it's way to his face, "You giggled." "D-did not! All those alpha duties finally broke you!" I retorted. He chuckled, "Yea, it did. Now the great alpha's really tired and is in need of a pillow. Be my pillow lowly servant!" he playfully commanded. "As you wish my strong alpha!" I followed jokingly as I pushed his head on my lap. His face turned instantly red as I laughed at his reaction.

We sat in silence for a while. He didn't pull away from my lap. "Do you think this means he's accepted us?" Alaska asked hopefully. I smiled, no. This is just a temporary thing. He's just doing this so that we'll fall for him and lose the challenge. I could feel his ears downcasted and heart stabbed. I hated it when he was sad, but I hated lying to him more.

"..I didn't mean it, you know?" Derek suddenly said. It took me aback for a bit, "Mean what?" He sighed and looked me in the eyes, I could then see clearly the apologetic clear blue eyes he had, "When I said you weren't worthy of a mate. I've been thinking about what you said at the party, about me having a worthless mate. That's not true. I'm just a guy, you know? We don't express our feeling well, and for the record, I don't hate you." I sat silently processing what he just said. He doesn't hate me? Does that mean I don't have to hate him either? Or is this just another one of his tricks? I looked back at his enchanting eyes, so pure they seem to hold no secret. He wasn't lying. "I don't hate you either" I whispered.

Derek smirked, "You just fell for me, didn't you?" My whole face turned red as I pulled him off of my lap, "O-of course not you idiot!" I stammered. He chuckled,"Just kidding. I know you're not that easy to get. But you're my mate, so you'll fall for me eventually." The reminder that I was his made brought some truth to light and I looked towards the ground as if they had all the answers. "If that was true, why do you want to reject the bond so bad? Why couldn't you just accept me as your mate?" the question slipped out.

His face turned serious for a moment and he looked like he was seriously thinking about it. "Because," he slowly leaned forward, his eyes never leaving mine. My breath got caught between my throat as I felt my own weight shifting,"I'm" he stopped just our lips were about to touch,"...an alpha" he backed away, the moment gone so fast I had to rewind to know it wasn't in my head. He suddenly stood up, leaving me flabbergasted and slightly furious. "I'm an alpha, so I can't be mated to a weak omega. I have to prioritise my pack." he repeated.

Hatred seethed my heart as I abruptly stood up and began walking away, "Wow, just, ok. I get it." I laughed, holding back the tears that threatened to fall. "Robin.." I growled,"No, stop it. I get it, okay? I'm not good enough for you- for Mr. Perfect. I'm just a lame old omega right? You can't possibly be seen walking around with me, much less mated with me. You know, I actually thought that you changed a little, for me," tears poured down my face, "but you're still the arrogant little brat that was always too good for me. So yeah, I get it. Forget what I said about me not hating you, because I do." with that I left him, walking away faster than I could run.

Derek's POV

I stood frozen in the moonlight as I repeated Robin's words in my head. He hates me. My mate hates me. I could feel Sax's heart being squeezed to ashes as a wave of pure void left my own. I felt empty. I never felt empty. Suddenly I found myself not able to think. All the confidence in me seeped away by a single sentence from my mate.

"You made our mate cry! You made him hate us!" Sax cried brokenly inside me, making my own tears break down. I didn't understand what was happening. Why am I crying? I had to do it. I had to do it for the sake of the pack. I can't have a weak mate, I can't allow him to be luna! "Why not? He is perfect. He is everything we'd ever wanted and everything we don't deserve. Why can't he become our mate? Why can't we keep on loving him and protect him for the rest of our lives?"

A wave of rage mixed in my agony as I felt torn between two sides. One urged me to go after him, another to stay. Sax's cries weren't helping my mentality. Finally, I cracked as I yelled at the top of my lungs as I scratched my face until it bled, "Because I can't!"

Everything turned quiet.

I felt my body tiring from the inner fight and whispered in the most pitiful voice I've ever heard come out of me, "I can't lose him."