Illegal (completed)

Chapter 38

Charlie: I don't blame her she is not the first girl who is trapped by him
"He looked at me with a smirk"
Tiffany: I...whatever!
Charlie: I always thought I'm more handsome
"Right..."
Tiffany: it's not about who is handsome who is not
Charlie: so you accept it too
Tiffany: I don't accept anything in this case
Charlie: after all she left my side exactly when I thought she is a very close friend to me but still she choosed being by his side
Tiffany: look...that's probably not the point
Charlie: it has always been this way
Tiffany: wait...are you in love with Violet?
Charlie: can you please stop relating everything to love?
Tiffany: I just thought...
Charlie: no I don't love anybody I already told you love is not made for me
Tiffany: love is not made for people, people find it
Charlie: well I'm not interested in finding it and also it doesn't exist
Tiffany: how can you say that? When love is the most beautiful feeling in the world
Charlie: also the most painful
Tiffany: but it's beautiful imagine in the time when it has pain you can think about its beauty
Charlie: but the pain doesn't go away...who are we lying to?
Tiffany: I'm saying the truth
Charlie: same!
Tiffany: can you stop saying such things about love like you have felt it when you have not?
Charlie: how do you know I haven't felt it
Tiffany: if you had you wouldn't act this way
Charlie: I have felt that shit where am I now?
Tiffany: maybe it wasn't love
Charlie: I'm pretty sure it was and even if it wasn't you felt it too...where is he? where is your love?
Tiffany: at least I can say I felt so good that time
Charlie: but you saw him dying
Tiffany: I have memories
Charlie: memories? till when you can live with memories?
Tiffany: I can say I have felt the most amazing feeling in the whole world and I'll never regret
Charlie: can you fall in love? Can you bear the pain again?
Tiffany: it depends...
Charlie: I know you wanted to break up with him don't tell me it was love if love is what you say
Tiffany: I...know what love is
Charlie: but you haven't felt it for real...I have that's where I can say love is not what you think
Tiffany: love is a feeling not a thought
Charlie: why are you always looking for arguing with me about love?
Tiffany: I don't!
Charlie: I see...
"I got up and went to another side of library I was facing books not him"
Tiffany: I just want to make you understand that love is possible...love is the best...
"I felt he grabbed my left shoulder and turned me to face him as he pinned me to the bookshelf he came close to me the situation was making me to breathe hard"
Charlie: the best feeling ever? You wanted to say? Tell me how you feel right now?
Tiffany: I...
Charlie: it feels good right? It feels like you don't want to let go...admit it...
"I closed my eyes I didn't know what was right what was wrong I could give my whole body and soul to him right now or I could keep them for my own it wasn't like I am in love with him but sometimes...you are just needy...you know?"
Charlie: tell me what do you want...what do you need
Tiffany: I...
Charlie: anybody who sees you...feel that obsession
Tiffany: did you feel it too?...
"I said whispering as he was whispering also"
Charlie: do you want to know?
Tiffany: I do...
Charlie: well...
"I suddenly pushed him away as we heard somebody opened the door"
Clare: I'm sorry mister I'm so so sorry
Charlie: what do you want Clare?
"He seemed mad a bit and annoyed"
Clare: I'm sorry miss...
Tiffany: it's ok Clare
Charlie: what's so important?
Clare: somebody came to visit you mister
Charlie: who?
Clare: I don't know mister he came and said it's necessary mister otherwise I wouldn't come...
Charlie: ok...I'll come in some seconds
"When he wanted to leave I heard he whispered 'not done with you yet' I don't know if I heard it right but...I can just hope...it wasn't I don't really want to have this thing with him like...he is hot and sexy ok but...still I can't I can't trust him...I can't let anything happen specially if it's with him...but when he does it...if he would do it again...how am I going to control myself? Thanks to Clare this time nothing happened but what would happen next if he would do it again...?"