High Off Love

Chapter 39

(So Taylor Lautner is Zack. I hope you are enjoying it so far! Please please please don't forget to vote and even leave comments if you don't like something or if you do:)

December 1st

Zack is going to ask about my past some day. We just get deeper into our relationship each day. Part of being in a relationship is knowing things about each other, and my past is a big part of me. We have been talking about ex's a lot today.

"So tell me about your last boyfriend." Zack pries.

I take a deep breath. "Well, his name is Toby." I pause and think of what else I should tell him. "What am I suppose to tell you?"

"Why did he break your heart? I don't understand how anyone could do that to you."

"It was a good reason." I try to dodge the first question.

"So what was it?" I guess I'm not getting past it.

"I cheated on him." I look away from his deep brown eyes. "I had a lot to drink, I drank way too much. Don't worry, I haven't been drunk since that night." I try to assure him. "Is Ella completely out of your life?" I change it back to his old girlfriend. They broke up five months ago. Her parents didn't like him, so they broke up. I can't tell if they were in love, but I don't think even if they were that he still is.

"You still love Toby." Zack states the most obvious statement to me, but it probably isn't to him.

"It's only been a month. Of course I'm still in love with him." For some reason I still can't imagine myself not being in love with Toby.

"I'll see you later." Zack gets off my couch and leaves. Great, now Zack is probably never going to talk to me again. No one wants a girl in love with someone else. I admit there have been times (almost every second) that I wish Zack was Toby. I wouldn't want a guy still in love with a girl, unless it was Toby still being in love with me.

I get off my couch to go in my room, but my phone starts to ring. "Hello?" I answer.

"I just talked to Toby." Rachel blurts. "I wasn't sure if you would want to know."

"Why isn't he in Florida?" I pace back and forth in my living room.

"Alice, he was with a girl." She tells me hesitantly.

A rage of jealousy fills me. My eyes fill with tears. "Where was he?"

"At Target."

"Did he seem happy with her?" I bare to ask.

"Yeah." She pauses. "I'm sorry Alice, but I just thought you wanted to know."

"I did want to know. I just want him to be happy, and as long as he is happy I will be ok." I try to wipe away my tears. "Bye." I hang up the phone. All the tears I've been holding back this last month pour out of me. I need to get ahold of myself.

I leave my apartment. Where is the closet bar? There are a lot of clubs and bars. I walk into the first one I see. "Vodka, and keep them coming." I lay down my credit card.

Drink after drink. It consumes me the way it did the night I cheated on Toby. I pull out a chunk of hundred dollar bills and walk toward the back of the club. "What are you selling?" I show the cash.

"Ecstasy." He answers slyly.

"That'll have to do." I slur and hand him the cash and he hands me the drugs. I stumble to a table towards the back. I take the drug that I rarely ever took in my past.
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"Toby, stay here with me." I pull on his arm. "I love you."

He turns toward me and kisses me. "I love you so much, but I have to go. You cheated on me." He reminds me of my horrible mistake.

"Who is that girl you were with?" I question and stand from my seat. I stumble and almost fall over.

"It's a girl who won't cheat on me. I have to go. You should go catch a cab." He is being so rude. Toby would never make me catch my own cab like this. He would make sure I got home ok.

I stumble around some more. Toby turns into my old drug dealer. "Where's my money?" He yells and pushes me down.

"What money?" I try to stand, but I'm stuck on the ground.

"You aren't being a good girl." My old drug dealer turns to my dad. "You promised you would be good." He said those exact words to me before he died.

"I don't know what to do with her." Toby reappears.

"She's your now." My dad tells Toby.

These must be hallucinations. This is all so confusing. "What did you take Alice?" Zack helps me stand.

"Just some ecstasy." I slur and point to where I thought was the back of the club, but I'm in my apartment.

"Who is this?" Toby seems frustrated. "Is this the guy you cheated on me with?"

"No, this is Zack. He is making me happy while you won't talk to me." I explain.

"I'm here." Zack holds me in his arms.

Toby turns into nothing. He disappears slowly.