The Virgin Outcast Who Stole the Emperor's Heart

Chapter 68

Chapter 68 - Mixed up

Nana, what are you doing? ..you know these people, you need to warn your mother ..oh god, mother... How will I explain what has happened to you.

Where are we even going to? I asked my mind worriedly. My husband will be looking for me, I should have waited to let him know of my whereabouts but I know mother wouldn't have allowed it because she's scared that my husband will have her head as she's still an outcast.

Where are we even going to, this unknown place is far. Oh god, of course mother won't be staying in Mandir as she's forbidden not to ..I can't go with her, my husband will be so worried.

"Mother, you need to listen to me." I said to my mother again but she just kept on smiling while looking at me with that look of finality and easiness.

"Calm down Nana, we're almost there." Mother said and instantly, as if her words have magic the rider started to slow down until finally, it halted completely in front of a building which seems very old and abandoned but huge. There are two men standing in front of the entrance with a scary look, which is normal for a guard ..i guess.

Mother came down first and then she assisted me. Immediately I stepped down, I grab mother by the hand and start looking her in the eyes while hoping that she'll see the distress in them and then perhaps she'll let us talk. "Mother I'm telling you the truth. Hwa told me that her father is is.. my father, your husband."

"Nana, Hwa had to say anything to get you outside ..I pleaded for her to get you to see me. We even went to a lot of trouble just for me to see you Nana, I kept begging Hwa to come and get you but she always say that you won't come with her or believe anything she says because you hate her for some reasons which is unknown to her. When Kyung-shook told me of your happy development, I became desperate to see you .. so one day while seating on that brick; mother said while pointing at a brick that's in the center of the house. "this thought came to my mind and I made it happen ..I sent my guard Bae into the palace and that's when things became a little less stressful _who really made all this possible is the troop leader ...Tae-hwan, he was my close friend. After Bae got in, she always sends me letters which contains information about you. Her last letter to me states that what Hwa was saying is true ..you dislike her and so much for that matter but Bae still couldn't get the reason why. I sent Tae-hwan a letter through Bae which contained just a simple request .." Met me at the Tyone's park."

We talked, did a lot of arguing and convincing ...after a little more of convincing, he agreed and he smuggled me inside for in case if Hwa little act fail, which it did and thankfully that day the Emperor wasn't in and it was easy for me to get in while being escorted by one of your personal guard.". After mother's speech, my mind become blank, confused and at the same time ..filled with lots of questions. I have to many things to say, ask but I just don't know which one to say first.

"Nana, Darling ..if you must know, Hwa biological father is Yi Chae-Yul." Mother said. when I still remain silent, mother pull me to her and begin to hug me while telling me how much she has missed me. Her earlier words has me completely confused because I really believed Hwa when she told me that father is her father, she was so convincing ..god, she even cried while kneeling down and _and now mother is telling me another different thing. What is more confusing is that the said Yi Chae Yul is supposed to be Sangyun father ..I mean this is what Kyung-shook said and she had the late Emperor's written acknowledgment. Maybe, ..perhaps, he's the father of both .. i mean it could be possible but...

"But.. But, mother.. Hwa said my father is her father and that she was jealous of me because I was father's favorite and Kyung-shook is Hwa mother who your husband cheated on you with ..it's possible mother, that Hwa might be telling the truth besides how do you know Kyung-shook so well that you're sure of her children fathers?" I asked wanting answers so badly as I'm so confused and unsure of what to do. My mind is telling me to go because this is Hwa, this is Kyung-shook place and I'm here alone, with no guard and my husband doesn't know of my whereabouts. I'm scared, sick, confused and that's the simple and short way to explain what I'm feeling right now. There's this feeling that's telling me to go but anytime I want to take my mother and do just that ..I just.. I feel trapped, like my heart doesn't want to because it seeks answers, more answers.

"Nana, Hwa told you my story. Her biological father is truly Yi Chae Yul." Mother said while holding me then she start to take me inside and I followed ..only because I don't even know what I am doing anymore ..my mind is in battle and it always becomes worse whenever mother throw in another confusing unknown words.

"Mother, who is Sangyun father? I asked curiously.

"Nam Joo-hyuk" mother said and I find my breathing changed. I pull on mother's hold and begin to walk out. I should have known ..I know, how would I have known but ..oh god! They mixed everything ..they mixed the truth and lie together! Kyung-shook did has the late Emperor's written acknowledgment but it didn't state the particular child's name. It only states that he has a child with Kyung-shook and the royal birth stamp on it.. I guess it's that way because the late Emperor didn't know of his child gender then, when he had written it. Oh god, so this is why Kyung-shook didn't demand for her son's princely position because it's not true, she didn't want a daughter from the late Emperor because daughters are to be married out ..but that's what she got and ..god, she hates her daughter.