Purple Roses

Apologies

Parker's P.O.V

I take a sip of the cold apple juice from the can in my hands and switch through the TV channels. I sigh as I find nothing better to watch. I mentally groan. I can't believe I'm wasting a whole day without doing something productive. I take another sip and this time give a real groan. "What's wrong with you?" Jordan walks in and comes sit by me. He takes the remote control and switches off the TV.

"How long do young girls stay mad?" I ask him seriously. He shrugs. "I don't know. I thought you'd be smart enough to actually go up and talk to her instead of just sitting here doing nothing." He takes the can from my hands and sips it. I sigh and look to the stairs. "I'll go talk to her." I get up and make my way up the stairs.

Once I reach her room, I knock twice. "Rosie, can I come in?" I call out. No response. I grip onto the handle and just when I was about to turn it, the door creaks open. "Rosie." I open the door wider and I see the window to her room opened widely. I take a step forward and the wood beneath me creaks. "Rosie." I sniff the air but I couldn't smell her. I frown and quickly make my way to the window and look down to try and find out where she went. "Rosie?" I call out, now getting worried.

Don't tell me those bastards came in here and took Rosie right under my nose! Fuck, where will I find her now? "Parker?" Rosie's voice calls me from above. I quickly look up and looking down at me from the roof is Rosie. I give a sigh of relief. "Rosie, what are you doing from up there?" I ask her. She shrugs. "I don't know. I just suddenly wanted to be up here." she says, and I could see the sincerity in her round big eyes. I smile and start the ascend up the window till I'm right by her side.

I make myself comfortable sitting by her side and just look over the wide woods. And stark in the middle is a huge deficit of trees. It's pretty far from the pack house but from here you can see it clearly. I feel a wave of emotions overcome me at once but I keep my head above the waters and the emotions at bay. It's in the past Parker. She's in the past, she can't hurt you now.

"You seem sad." Rosie's voice brings me back to the present. I look at her and I see the worry in her eyes. I give her a small smile. "I'm not. I'm just thinking." I tell her. She frowns. "What you are thinking about is making you sad, no?" she asks me. I gulp and look out to the woods. "Kind of. But it's in the past now. I've moved on." I shrug and look back at her. She nods and looks out to the woods. "As long as your okay." she smiles to herself. "Yeah." I say weakly. I don't think, I've really moved on but I can't get into it with her. She wouldn't understand. She's still a kid.

"Where I'm from, we have a huge field as wide as this whole area and we use it to train." She says dreamily. I sit up and pay close attention to what she's saying. "Cara and I would train from morning till midday. We were the only ones allowed to train in that area as fitting of royalty. Uncle didn't want us mixing with the others." She continues.

"I remember one day, Uncle called Cara while she and I were training and told her to go his office. There was something they needed to discuss. I wanted to go with because Cara and I were never apart. Where she went, I did. Where I went, she did. We were inseparable. But Uncle didn't want me there, he only wanted Cara." She pauses and brings her knees closer to her small body and she rests her head on them. Her eyes started getting all clouded, like she's in deep thought.

"Then Cara disappeared for over 4 months. She never even said goodbye. She never told me where she went or why she would go alone. She just left me." she frowns. "And then she came back but she came back different." She stops talking and turns her head to face me. "She acted different. She talked different. It was like she forgot who she was. She was another person." She looks me in the eyes. "And she kept repeating the same thing, over and over again." She sits up and turns her whole body to face me.

"And what was that?" I asked but something told me I wouldn't like what I was about to hear. 

"Parker I'm sorry." And it felt as if a knife just got lodged right into my chest. I take a deep breath. "She kept repeating the same thing over and over again. Uncle and I thought she had gone mad so we had to confine her to her chambers and had the nurses treat her." Then tears started to fall down her face. I felt my heart jump out in panic. I know I'm supposed to say something but, what? She wipes the tears down her face.

"Parker, I'm sorry for whatever it was Cara did to you. I'm really sorry." She cries. I watch as tears fall endlessly from her eyes and as she tries to dry them. I feel something heavy sitting on my chest and it's kind of making it hard for me to breathe or think properly.

But what did Cara do to me? What could have made her think she needed to apologize to me? "A week after Cara got confined to her chambers I snuck into her room and I found her crawled up in a ball. She told me she hated herself. She told me if she could she would go back and change things. But her time was up. She had taken too long and needed to leave or else she wouldn't want to."

Then things started to come full circle. "She said she hated who she had to become." Please no. Cara isn't. Cara wouldn't. Rosie sniffles and looks down her hands sad. "Cara is not the same person she was when she met you, Cara is not -" but the sound of something breaking shocked her into keeping quiet. She looks at me eyes wide. "Parker?" she wipes her tears.

That's how she knew my name. That's how she knew where to find me. That's why she hid her face from me, because she knew I would find out who she was and not want to help her. So we met again Kiara. The anger bubbling inside me is getting too much to contain. I need to get away from here and her as possible. "I need to go." I tell her and get up from the roof. "Parker wait." She reaches out her hands to touch me. "Rosie it's okay. I just need to go for a while. I'll be back I promise." I try my best to give her an assuring smile. "Don't leave me. Why is everyone leaving me?" she asks me.

"Rosie. Let go." I growl at her getting more furious. She widens her eyes at me and let's go. "Parker she's sorry." She mumbles. I jump down the roof and land on all fours on the porch making a loud thud.