"Tinatakot mo ako Axel. Tell me what's bothering you?" I placed my hand above Axel's fist na nakapatong sa lamesa. I was worried dahil kanina lang nakangiti sya ngayon tila may gusto syang suntukin.
Then I was suprised when he stood up near my chair and claimed my lips. I was too stunned to do anything sa bilis nang pangyayari. Nakadilat lang ang mga mata ko't nakatitig sa mata nyang unti-unting sumasara habang ang mga labi nya'y unti- unti ring gumagalaw sa ibabaw ng labi ko. I know na mali, na dapat pumalag ako pero, all I can do is just feel the warmth of his lips unto mine. The way how he claim it makes my heart thumped fast inside my chest.
I know this ought to stop but I can't find my strength to do so. Instead, I grab his shirt in my fist as my hands rest on his masculine chest. Then I felt him run his tongue on my lower lip to coax my mouth to do so. He repeatedly doing it and it made me gasp sending shivers down my spine making my knees into jelly. I ran my hands through his nape and clung onto itfor support. The sweetness of his lips savours mine. He licked my lips with too much sensuality as I felt his tongue sucked mine passionately. I closed my eyes and feel the mixture of passion of our kiss then from a beautiful dream biglang nagflashback ang mukha ni Sean sa isip ko. Our memories together. Our dreams as we reach for it. His sudden death. Those nights I wont make me sleep dahil sa pag-iyak. Those days that I wished na maggabi na para tumigil na ako sa pagiisip ng dahilan kung bakit kailangan nyang mawala.
With those thoughts, nag-unahan sa pagpatak ang mga luha ko. Napansin iyon ni Axel at napatigil sya sa paghalik sa akin.
"Baby, what's wrong? Why are you crying? Did I hurt you?" He asked me worriedly habang pinipilit nyang punasan ng mga daliri nya ang mga luha kong ayaw tumigil. Umiling lang ako at yumuko habang pinipigilan ko ang humikbi.
"Then, why are you crying? Tell me please." He raised my chin so I can face him pero hindi ko magawang tumingin sa mata nya.
"S-si Sean... Sya y-yung may-may ari ng kotse..." I was able to whisper thatvkahit may tila nakabara sa lalamunan ko habang patuloy na lumuluha ang mga mata ko. I know I must tell him everything now. He must know everything. I don't wanna hurt Axel.
"Rienne, baby, I-I don't understand." Confussion evident on his face habang patuloy nya akong pinapatahan.
"He owned that car... H-he was k-killed. He's my f-fiancee..." Hindi ko na napigilan at napahagulgol ako. Bawat salita na bibigkasin ko tungkol doon ay parang bumabalik lahay ng sakit na halos mag-iisang taon ko nang pinipilit kinikimkim. Yung hirap ng pagtanggap na nawala sya sa akin nang biglaan.
"I-I should be with h-him... Supposedly, w-we should have a photoshoot in Paris, n-nauna sya doon dahil conflict sa schedule k-ko. The plane he got, g-got hijacked and he w-was s-shot while p-protecting someone." Napahagulgol ako kasabay ng mas marami pang luha. Mahirap man at masakit, ayokong madamay si Axel sa hinagpis ko. He's too nice to be included in my too miserable life.
"I-I don't want you to expect anything. I l-love Sean. Still love him k-kahit wala na sya. K-kahit d-di nya tinupad ang pangakong pakasalan ako."
I was thinking now that Axel knew about my reasons he will flee away, but instead he smiled ang hugged me tight.
"Shhh... Hush now. It's funny isn't it?" He chuckled while his hand's caressing my back.
"Just awhile ago, I was so consumed with jealousy just by thinking of somebody will put that beautiful smile on your face. That I'm so jealous I want to hit him on his face, pero imposible pala. Dahil ngayon alam ko na, na wala na sya. Pero kahit wala na sya, he's still the reason of smiles and now your tears." Pinusan nya muli ang luhang naglandas sa pisngi ko.
"Pero, kahit ganon, I can't stop getting near you. Kahit alam kong mahihirapan akong makalapit, I still can't find the courage to stop because I'm so attracted to you. I'm like a moth in a fire. And you're my fire, Rienne and even if you will burn me I don't care." He chuckled again and raised my chin for me to face him. I saw his eyes looking intently into mine, reading my soul.
He sighed and smiled at me "I'm willing to be your rebound, I won't mind. I will still pursue you. I just want to see you happy at gusto ko kasama mo ako sa bawat oras na yon. Hindi ko hinihiling na ipalit mo ako sa alaala nya, dahil imposible yon. Ang tanging hiling ko lang hayaan mo akong intayin ka at wag mo akong itaboy palayo."
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