Love/Hate

Trust.

It feels like I've been alone for 100 years.

Kieran didn't return to me.

After the shock of finding myself crying I tried to calm down.

Balance.

Quietness.

Than I remembered that my world was made of silence.

Loneliness.

Fear.

Angst.

Hatred.

I think something is I wrong with me.

I feel.

I hurt.

After feeling nothing for so long.

Emptiness.

My heart used to be closed off.

But now I'm not sure anymore.

It's him.

He changed me.

I don't like it.

I don't like him.

No he is the only constant in my life.

The only thing I would call routine.

But he changed me.

Hasn't he?

He made me feel.

I don't want to feel in this hell hole.

I have to kill him.

Murder him.

Cold-blooded murder.

He is going to hell.

I promise.

But what about a weapon?

I've to earn his trust.

Only that is my way out.

Trust.

Friendship.

Loyalty.

I have to talk to him.

Make him believe me.

After a long time my world finally has a purpose.

I'm gonna get out of here.

I'll find my shattered memories.

Flick them together.

Find my family.

Friends.

And pray that Kieran pays.

Pays with his blood.

And I will guarantee that by myself.

As long as that happens I'll put my doubts away.

I'll leave them at the very corner of my brain and bury them.

It's my only way out of this.