Love/Hate

Wish.

Maybe I'm dreaming.

Maybe this is just a momentary nightmare.

And when I wake up, I'll lay in my comfortable bed.

My parents a few rooms further from me.

My brother.

My sister.

Maybe I have a big family.

Maybe it just me and my parents.

But than I realize...

That I'm utterly alone.

I am hold captive in a storage room.

I now understand this concept.

I once thought that this was normal. But know I realize it.

Because I don't want to be here.

I want to see the outside world.

The sunshine.

The rain.

The thunderstorms.

I only remember bits and pieces.

Nothing personal.

No recollection of faces.

No mother.

No father.

No brother.

No sister.

Nothing.

It just me.

Me.

I didn't want to talk to Kieran last time.

I really didn't want to.

But the moment he entered I'd forgotten all about it.

It's silly.

It's stupid.

I shouldn't be so compelled by him.

I shouldn't feel safe with him.

But I do.

And I don't want to.

But I can't stop myself.

He is a part of this.

If I get too attached I'm risking everything.

And all I want is to get out of here.

But as of right now I'm not sure if I can kill him.

I could have killed him before.

But the kindness and warmth he gave to me changed me.

I don't know if I can do it.

I'm scared.

But behind this brick door is a world.

A world I have yet to encounter.

And that is my last wish.