When Destiny Hits You

Epilogue

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My phone beeped and then I saw a message from her mom asking if I'm going to visit her today.

"Yes tita, pupunta ako." I sent that reply as I wiped my tears and then took the picture frame beside my bed and hugged it. It was our picture on it.

It's the 15th of May today. I lost my heart exactly on this date when God called you home. It's been over 5 years but it feels like just yesterday.

I remember exactly how you look like at that moment and it breaks my heart everytime I remember it. I remember the sound of my voice as I cried,calling out your name. I remember how i wished it was just a dream, that you're not really gone.

I remember the times when I thought I heard you knocked on the door and when i open it, you're not there.

I remember the heaviness that came with the realization that you're truly gone forever and there's nothing I can do about it. Tears were streaming down my face as i recall those painful events.

5 years ago...

I was happily walking to the hospital's hallway through your room with your favorite flower on my hand. I couldn't take off my smile because finally! I was able to visit you again but that smile was easily replaced with fear, sadness and pain when I saw Yssa and your family outside your room, crying.

"Nasaan si Rose..?" Agad kong tanong kay Yssa ng makalapit ako sa kanya.

"Rain... wala na si Rose.." mangiyak-ngiyak na sagot ni Yssa. Nabitawan ko ang mga dala ko ng marinig ko ang sinabi ni Yssa.

No... That can't be true!

"Yssa naman eh...wag ka ngang magbiro ng ganyan!" Sigaw ko. Hindi ako naniniwala na wala na si Rose.. magkausap pa kami kagabi. Ayos pa naman sya eh..

"Rain, hijo..hindi nagbibiro si Yssa." Sagot ni Tito saka nya ako hinawakan sa balikat ko."Rose is gone..." Dagdag nya pa na syang tuluyang nagpawasak sa puso ko. My knees lost it's strenght. My heart feels like it's being stabbed by a knife over and over again.

"Rain..." Umiiyak na tawag ni Yssa sa pangalan ko but I didn't listen. I gathered my remaining strength and rushed to your room panicking. I saw doctor Alvarez with the nurses, trying their best to revive you as I watch helplessly on the corner.

I saw how your heart rate slowly dropped.

I heard a flat line indicating that you have no pulse or life, with that, the doctor said.

"time of death, 6:30 pm, I'm sorry Rain but we tried everything we can pero hindi na kinaya ng katawan nya. My condolences to you and her family.." Dr. Alvarez tapped my shoulder. I can see the sad look in his face as if he was sorry that i lost you.

"No! She can't be dead! Doc please...do everything you can please save my girlfriend I'm begging you please...please save her.. please doc" I've kneeled down on Doctor Alvarez's feet, begging while crying.

"I'm sorry hijo, pero hindi na talaga kinaya ng katawan ni Rose.. bumigay na din ang puso nya..."

My tears streams down like crazy. My mind turned blank. I stand beside your dead body. I felt really helpless that time.

"No...no no no! Rose! Rose!! Please wake up... please" I was crying hard that time while hugging your dead body "darling... please wake up.. don't leave me.." I called out your name again and again but you aren't responding...

Lumapit sakin si Ate Crimson saka nya iniabot sa kanya ang sulat na mula sayo.

Ang daya mo... Ang daya daya mo. Hindi mo manlang ako hinintay...