Who Knew? // 5SOS [ #Wattys 2015 ]

Chapter 29

I woke up spooning Ashton, but I didn't mind. I turned my body so my face was pressed up to his chest. I couldn't help but let my eyes betray me by letting tears escape.

"Sh, it's okay," Ashton cooed, while he brought his hand up to stroke my hair. I looked up to see him have a soft smile on his face. I tried to return it and I barely could.

"Do you want anything to eat?" Ashton asked. I nodded wearily as Ashton let go of me and got up, heading to the kitchen. The bus wasn't moving like when we went to sleep before I ended up getting sick, I can't really remember if the bus was moving at 5 am or not... Anyway the driver needed a break so he's probably sleeping for a bit before heading back out. The longer he sleeps the longer I get with the boys, so I hope he sleeps a lot.

"C'mon El," Ashton called me over to the little booth. He had made toast but it didn't matter, I didn't want anything fancy. We both ate in silence, not only because of tiredness, but because we didn't want to just randomly burst out crying so it was better to stay silent.

"Thank you, Ashy," I smiled gently when I finished my toast. He nodded and I climbed out of my booth and climbed into his, leaning up against him. He put his arm around me and rested his hand on my stomach. It wasn't long until the others were awake and joining us in the small booth. We had to squish together to fit Luke on the other side of me. Poor Ashton was up against the wall.

"Can we not move this somewhere else," I giggled lightly. The bus had now started moving and we'd be there in two and half hours. We all shuffled out but as Michael was about to join us on the floor the bus stopped, causing him to face plant into the ground. I burst out into laughter with the others. Michael curled up into a little ball and held his face in his hands. When the laughing died down I couldn't help but continue to giggle here and there.

"I'm going to miss your little giggle," Ashton sighed.

"I could say the same for you," I smiled gently.

"I'm fine thanks for asking!" Michael screamed into his hands. I shuffled over to him on my knees and rolled him over, pulling his hands out of his face. I brushed his fringe off his head lightly and kissed the little red mark on the left side of his forehead.

"Hope it feels better soon," I stuck my bottom lip out. He gave me a little smile and hugged me. I couldn't tell you how long we stayed in that hug along with the others who joined one by one.

"I should probably get ready," I sighed as I squeezed out of the hug. I shuffled into the bedroom and opened my suitcase. The first things I saw were the beanie, flannel, and stuffed puppy. I grabbed them all, a pair of leggings, and a black crop tank top that had an infinity sign and said "Love" along the line of the sign. I put on the top and leggings while I tied the flannel around my waist. I brushed out my crazy hair and placed the beanie on it. I grabbed the stuffed animal and walked out of the room. All the boys smiled at me as I walked out.

"I have some requests..." I said quietly. They all waited for me to continue. I walked up in front of Calum and gave him the puppy, earning a confused look.

"Can you cuddle with this? There's something missing from it... I think it's like a minty type smell that's just you," I said. He took it from me and hugged it before tucking it under his arm. Next I walked over to Mikey.

"Mike, it already smells like you but," I said as I untied the flannel, "it's a very faint smell that will go by tonight I know," I pushed it towards him and he took it, flinging it on to his shoulders, buttoning it up to cover his pale chest. He hugged himself tight and smiled. Lastly I headed to Ashton.

"Basically the same thing Ash," I giggled as I pulled off the beanie. He took it from me and stuck it in the front of his pants so half of it was hanging out.

"No! I don't want that smell!" I shrieked. They all laughed at me as I pouted and crossed my arms.

"Why not?" Ashton smirked. I playfully slapped his arm. He finally pulled it out and held it close to him. I walked over to Luke and just hugged him, burying my face in his neck.

The bus pulled off the highway, telling us we only had about half an hour left together. The boys got changed but Michael left the flannel on with a muscle tee underneath it.

The thirty minutes seemed to fly by sadly and before we all knew it we were standing outside of the bus, my bags next to my Aunt Jess' car, along with her. The boys were lined up, puffy eyed.

The first boy was Luke. I walked up to him, my head down in despair. He bent down to my height and tilted my head up gently with his index finger. He smiled a reassuring smile before pulling me into a tight hug. I dug my face into his chest before letting out a little sob.

"Don't forget us, Love, please. I love you," Luke begged. I shook my head side to side.

"Don't forget me Lucas, I love you," I sniffed. We squeezed each other once more and he kissed my cheek before I moved on to Michael. His pale face was stained with wet streaks but he still had a small smile. I wrapped my arms around his waist, underneath his flannel, and he did the same to me. When we pulled away he shrugged off his flannel.

"I believe this belongs to you," he handed it to me. I took it from him and tied it gently around my waist before squeezing his waist again.

"I love you Mikey," I started my never ending cycle of crying.

"I love you Laur," Michael started crying again. He brushed my fringe off my forehead and kissed it gently, like how I did to him earlier. Next, I moved on to Calum.

"I'm going to miss you Cuddles," I said trying to recompose myself, but failing. He pulled me into his chest where I let it out. He stroked my hair and kissed my head softly every now and again. I felt a tear drop on my head from him. When we pulled away I witnessed the betraying tears on his face.

"I love you babe,"

"I love you," I replied. He placed the stuffed puppy in my hand before I moved on to Ashton. We stared into each other's watery eyes for a minute before he engulfed me in a huge hug. His arms were around my waist and he was lifting me off my feet. My arms were wrapped around his neck along with my head being buried in his neck. We were both sobbing messes.

After our little sob, I removed my face from his neck, wiped the tears falling from his eyes, and kissed his cheek gently. He also kissed mine, but dangerously close to my lips. He then placed me on my own two feet where we stared into each other's eyes again. He pulled the beanie of his messy hair and placed it on my head.

"What will I do with out you El?" He asked a rhetorical question.

"I love you Ashy," I said with a shaky voice.

"I love you El," Ashton put his head down.

"Okay, that was sweet and all but now we need to go Lauren," My aunt Jess said as she grabbed my wrist and pulled me away from Ashton.

"Don't forget the videos!" I shouted before I was pushed into the car. I was sat in the backseat, diagonal from the drivers seat that was on the left side. Different than Australia. I looked out the back window and waved to the boys as they grew smaller and smaller. Finally when I couldn't see their sad faces I sat back in my seat, realizing what just happened.

"Oh my god," I put my head in my hands and started sobbing. Who knows when the next time I'll see them is going to be. I was sat in my seat, letting it all out for the half an hour drive back to my Aunts house.

I wiped the tears and climbed out of the car to see a huge house. How does she afford this? We collected my bags from the trunk and when we walked inside I gasped. We were standing in a mansion, I swear. It looked so much like the house in Taylor Swift's "Blank Space" music video.

My aunt stopped my gaping when she stood in front of me. That's when I realized how much she resembles my mum. She has the light brown hair and brown eyes that my mum had. Their face shape is very identical and overall I want to call her Mum.

"Okay, we need to lay down some ground rules," her voice seemed menacing, nothing like my mums.