Truth of Falling

21 | Breakdown

I couldn't sleep.

I stayed up all night thinking about yesterday.

The statement. The conversation. The knife.

It was a lot to wrap my mind around.

I need to talk to sort everything out, between Owen and the knife it's a lot.

I've been trying to find Owen all day at school to explain what happened yesterday and what Jesse told me but he's no where at school. He didn't even bother to show up.

Did he not show up because of our argument? Is he that mad at me? Or did something happen that I'm not aware of? Jesse said he going through something, I just don't know what.

I type a quick message to Owen just to make sure he was okay.

Hey Owen, I noticed you're not at school. Are you ok? Please text me back even if you're mad, I have a lot to say.

My thumb is above the send button. Should I send it? Would this message bother him? Should I just wait and see if he messages me first?

After staring at the message I finally just said forget it and push send and set my phone in my pocket.

I open my lunch bag that is sitting on the lunchroom table in front of me. Which has strawberry yogurt and some string cheese and whatever random stuff I threw in here when I was making my lunch. We ran out of fruit cups so I couldn't take one today which was a bummer because their my favorite snack if you didn't know.

My phone dings suddenly inside my pocket.

I take my phone out to look at the message

Yeah I'm all good. I just woke up late and currently dealing with my sister and decided not to go.

Hopefully everything is ok.

I study the message. Is he still mad at me? He didn't respond to me saying I have a lot to say?

Stop overthinking Millie he said he woke up late and is dealing with his sister.

When he's ready then we can talk.

I look up from my phone and notice Carter walking into the cafeteria.

I wave him over and he begins to walk over to the table to join me.

We haven't really talked since our last encounter after Owen and I got into a small feud.

"Hey Mils." Mils. I almost forgot about that nickname.

"Hello Car." I never forgot about the nickname car though. It's not a very good nickname but it's the nickname he gets.

"How have you been since I last saw you?" Oh ya know the usual running around trying to fix the misunderstandings between everyone while dealing with my own issues.

"Interesting. I found out what happened between Owen and his old friend and you were right they had an issue but it's most likely just a huge misunderstanding, and I did my statement."

"A statement?"

"Yeah I didn't want to tell anyone but I got called down to the station and they asked me a bunch of questions."

"What kind of questions?"

"What I remember about that night and if I know anything about a knife."

"A knife?"

"Yeah I don't know anything about a knife, I don't know what this means, was Lucas stabbed? Did I stab him? Did someone stab him? I just I can't remember."