Truth of Falling

14 | The Park

I just said that. Did I really just say that?! Carter's face is super pale it's like he had just seen a ghost. He begins to take a few steps backwards to move away from me

"You- you killed him" He could barely get those words out because his voice is so shaky. Why did I have to tell him like this? I try to walk closer to him but he only takes more steps back.

"Well I think so. I don't know. I'm not certain." My voice starts to sound distressed.

"What do you mean you don't know?! That makes no sense, either you killed him or not." His voice gets louder by each word. I'm trying to hold it together.

"I told you I can't remember that night! But it only makes sense if I did it! I was the last person to see him! and I woke up to blood everywhere and him missing!" I plop down onto the couch putting my head in my hands. I feel the vibration of footsteps waking over to me.

"What do you remember?" I look up at him. His eyes are soft again and not so intense

"I remember being at prom perfectly until the very end that's when everything is blurry and fuzzy. I remember we decided to leave and we got into my car and that's it then I woke up to  blood everywhere. It was all over my hands and my body and he was gone." Carter moves closer to me and sits down.

"Are you sure you don't remember anything else?" I wish I could. I spent everyday since the accident wishing I could remember more details but I just can't

"No. I wish I could remember more."

"Does anyone else know?! Like your family??"I shake my head sternly.

"No. Nobody knows. Everyone knows he passed away and they all knew I was just depressed and heartbroken about his death and put me into therapy but they don't know that I think I was the one who did it." Without thinking I get the urge to grab my phone and send a message.

Me: Can we meet up?

Owen: Sure. When and where? I look up and realize Carter and is still sitting next to me looking at me.

"Owen texted me and says he wants to meet up." I blurt, slightly lying.

The mention of Owens name makes Carter tense up

"Where at?" I look back down at my phone.

Me: Now at the park. If that's alright?

Owen: On my way. I put my phone back into my pocket and stand up.

"I have to meet him at the park. So if you don't mind I need to get going." I walk towards the front door having Carter follow me.

"Do you want me to come?" As he asks, he looks up the stairs cautiously. Is someone up there? Maybe it's his sister? Maybe she wasn't really out shopping? It doesn't matter I don't want him to come with, that's the last option I want

"No, I have already caused so much chaos. I'm so sorry for everything. Especially for coming here, I told you this all was a mistake. You should've just stayed away. I walk out with any last words, closing the door behind me.

I ruined everything.

I get into my car and drive to the park. He wasn't specific on what park but I'm guessing the park closest to the high school because it's the only one around here. I turn off the radio and drive in silence.

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Sitting in the parking lot in front of the park, I see Owen sitting on the stained wooden park bench.