zelk pov
Tomorrow is the big day! I can finally see Mega!
I spent most of my day packing.
I tried contacting Mega several times, but he never answered.
Looked like I would have to spend the night in a hotel, and visit him in the morning.//try to find him
I didn't want to go around a foreign city at night.
mega pov
I finally plugged my courage to check my phone.
14 missed calls and 9 of them from Zelk.
Was he ok?
Why did he call me so many times?
Was he worried about me, or did something happen to him?
I saw that both Zak and Bad called me too.
So many missed messages...
Everyone freaking out about me disappearing.
I didn't feel like answering them.
'I just want to suffer in peace...' I thought.
These last couple of days I've been very close to ending everything.
I was fed up with my life.
I often found myself standing in the bathroom, a knife to my throat.
But I could not do it.
I was too much of a coward.
I wanted to end it, but I just couldn't.
But I was broken.
Nothing, nothing could ever fix me.
'Just a dumb mute.'
'Useless.'
'Worthless.'
'I wish you were never born.'
'You are the problem... why don't you just kill yourself?'
Those words echoed in my head.
I rushed to my notebook.
It was the only thing that helped me, as a distraction from my thoughts.
"I need your help, but it's like you're seeing through me,
Every day to me is gloomy."
...
I sat there in silence for a bit.
That was usual.
I listened to music 24/7.
It was rare when I didn't have my earphones with me.
"I'm trying my best to try and survive,
But I don't know how long it'll take me to revive."
I really was trying my best to survive, but it seemed like life didn't want me there.
Could I really revive though?
Was I fixable?
Or was I rotten on the inside, forever, with no hope of ever being like others?
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Silent Voice - Zelkpvp Novel
FanfictionHis eyes sparkled slightly filled with thoughtfulness and caring but had deep sadness within them... The man was wearing a black hoodie, blue jeans, and a green scarf... I looked and saw a knife covered in blood lying on the floor beside Mega... The...