Dangerous quiet things (lexa x you)

*ai laik tarri kom trikru; chapter 35

i made my way towards the commanders tent thinking about what was up with Anya. did she know lexa and I kissed?, does she know whats gonna happen when i get there?. i was torn between the chances that i'd done something wrong or that she regrets what happened.

i was snapped out of my thoughts when lexa's tent came into view and i tried to slow my steps down as much as i could without it looking strange.

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i was standing right in front of the commanders tent, her two guards who could be mistaken for boulders standing at either side, doing their job. they starred at me for a few seconds before someone shouted from inside the tent "let her in" don't even ask me how she new i was already here. the guards moved away from their defensive positions and the one on the left pulled the fabric flap to the side, motioning for me to go in.

stepping inside, the warmth of the tent hit my face. looking around i noticed the tons of candles lit, illuminating the room with it's orange glow. looking back to the front of the tent, there was a small double bed with furs covering it, a desk with maps on the right and not much else besides a small table with a water jug and cup. she was standing in the middle on the room, her arms crossed behind her back and her chin held up high. one would think she would be about to sentence you to death but the small smile that rested on her lips made me calm down my nerves slightly.

"heya" she said and my eyes locked with her emerald green ones 'hey'. she started to make small steps towards me and i didn't know whether or not to do the same. she was standing 1 foot away from me and didn't say anything before reaching her hand up to cup my cheek. she looked down to the floor and i was a little confused. 'is everything alright?'. everything was running through my mind right now. did something happen to Bellamy and Lincoln? Did she regret kissing me? that's it. she definitely regrets it. i felt my face fall and a sigh escape m lips. i watched as her face now wore a confused expression. "yeah, everything's fine, i was just thinking. is everything alright with you?" she asked concerned. 'Yeah, it's alright I understand' another sigh escaped my mouth and i went to turn away but her hand on my wrist stopped me. "what are you talking about?" i heard the confusion in her voice and it confused me. 'you regret kissing me, i understand' i shook her hand off and went to walk out of the tent but her hand rushed to my shoulder and spun me around. "no!" she said a bit loudly and i flinched.

her hand still rested on my shoulder, only lighter now. she reached her other hand up and cupped my cheek again "not at all" was all she said before she leaned forward and i felt her soft lips crash onto mine. our lips moved in sync, slowly and passionately. soon oxygen became an issue and we both pulled back and rested our foreheads together. with my eyes still closed and my breaths coming out a bit short. "i don't regret it at all, i just have a lot on my mind right now and...I'm just worried" i opened my eyes and pulled away so i could look at the brunette.

'what do you mean?' she shakes her head but i place my hands on either side oh her jaw and she sighed. "clarke was on her way here with...raven? i think but on the way they were ambushed by maun men, everyone is fine but Clarke's personal guard got shot and they found a picture of us together from the other night and a picture of clarke. we are all targets and I'm worried because i cant loose you like i did costia" she shook my hands off and started pacing a bit and i could tell that there was a war going on in her mind. "i want to do whatever it is that this is between us but if the mountain find out or Azgeda, i cant go through that again" she shook her head and her breathing started to get heavier. i walked to her and placed my hands on her shoulders firmly 'they wont, we'll be fine' she shook her head "you don't know that y/n, if the mountain or Queen Nia capture you they will use you to get to me" she was angry and sad and some other emotion i couldn't figure out 'then we'll keep it quiet, between us, and if worst comes to worst we'll protect each other, okay?' i was just hoping whatever was between us didn't end just because of a threat that might or might not be a problem, i don't want it to end before it has even started.

she sniffles a bit but her face stayed dry. she nodded her head slowly and i pulled her into a hug. her head rested on my shoulder and i rested my chin on her head with my arms wrapped tightly around her. 'we'll be fine' i felt her nod and we both pulled away from the hug. our eyes stayed on each other and we just starred into each others eyes for a couple of seconds before there was a voice at the door. "Heda, Indra is here to speak with you" one of her guards called out and lexa nodded. "i'll see you later, y/n" i nodded "let her in!" she called back and i made my way to the exit, passing a stoic Indra on my way out.

the sun was still high in the sky, it was only a little bit past lunch time. the people were doing their jobs around tonDC and children were playing. bird were chirping and glancing up i saw the all to familiar outline of hestia. shaking my head with a small quiet laugh. i made my way to the edge of the village where not many people were before whistling out and soon enough i cold see hestia flying down before she landed on the ground in front of me, sending a gust of wind into my face. 'damn buddy' hestia squawked loudly 'shhh buddy, i don't want you to draw attention to us' despite the little clearing i was in being completely empty i couldn't help but feel a little off, not wanting anyone else to see hestia. as i f the eagle understood what i said, she went quiet, just starring at me while tilting her head from side to side a bit.

*snap*

hearing a twig crack i spun around but what i saw i definitely wasn't expecting, a child. i raised a brow and the kid seemed to be cursing himself in his mind while his eyes were scrunched closed. the boy slowly peeked his eyes open and saw me looking at him. he did a small wave and i did i little wave back. "heiy" he said and i nodded 'hi' in his eyes i could see all kinds of confusion and his brows were furrowed. shaking his head he took a few cautious steps towards me. "whats that?" the little boy asked and he definitely wasn't any older than 5, his blonde scruffy hair falling in front of his eyes and the knees on his pants had grass and dirt stains. i was slightly confused by his question but then he pointed his little hand behind me and i turned to look over my shoulder seeing he was referring to hestia. making an 'oh' face 'she's an eagle' the little by nodded, ignoring his confusion as to how he can hear me. he took more steps forward, although a bit more confident.

walking up until he was directly in front of the eagle i was surprised he wasn't afraid despite the fact that the eagle was the same size as him. he reached his hand out and carefully touched the birds head, caressing it softly. "does she have a name?" he asked and i walked closed so i was on the other side of the eagle and crouched down to their level. 'yeah, hestia' the little boy nodded but didn't look up from the birds feathers "why?" with furrowed brows 'goddess of fire' he made an 'oh' expression on his face and it was pretty cute. "that's cool" he whispered as he continued to pat the eagle. i nodded 'whats you're name?' he looked up at me this time but narrowed his eyes slightly as if debating whether or not to tell me. "ai laik tarri kom trikru" he introduced himself, loosing his skeptical expression and now holding a proud one which made me chuckle 'well, nice to meet you tarri, I'm y/n kom skaikru' he nodded before his bright brown eyes widen "your one of the people from the skai!" he said excitedly and i chuckled and nodded and he had a small grin on his face "that's so cool!" his reaction was adorable, seeing the joy and excitement in his eyes, yet to be faced with the cruelty of the world.

looking at the sky and noticing the dark starting to seep in 'are you from tonDC?' the boy looked at me and nodded 'we should get back, its not safe to be out here after dark' he nodded again and i stood from my crouched position and he followed me as i took a few steps backwards and hestia flew up off the grounds and perched herself on a treebranch. i started walking back in the direction where more people were and i felt tarri's little hand slip into mine and i glanced down, seeing him slightly skipping and looking around without a care in the world and it made me smile.