Dangerous quiet things (lexa x you)

*whats up with you?; chapter 27

y/n pov

the meeting had finished and everyone had left the council room, Bellamy off to get ready for going into mount weather, Abby had some patients, lexa, Anya and Indra got all of the grounder warriors packing the stuff they don't need up so they can leave first thing in the morning to summon the leaders from each clan for a meeting and explaining our plan for mount weather, and me,  i had just decided to put the musty leather book and paper slip in my room before i started roaming around camp, not doing anything in particular.

"hey!" i heard someone yell out and turned my head, seeing octavia, it had been a while since i had spoken to her, with her training and spending time with the grounders a lot, the last time we spoke must have been when i woke up after being shot, i think. slightly waving in her direction she jogged up to me. "hey, whats going on?" she asked and i shrugged, i could tell from the few times i had seen her around camp that shes had something on her mind a lot lately. 'whats up with you' she looked at me but didn't say anything, just studying my face with her intense gaze. she shrugged, she looked down slightly and i followed her line of sight, seeing she was looking at my dogtag.

"where'd you get that?" she asked and took it it her hand gently while observing it. 'it was in a box of my fathers stuff' she looked back at me and nodded. "was it you're father, that you know, you crisped?" she asked and i was surprised she hadn't known yet. nodding my head she sighed "why? i know he shot you but that didn't mean you had to kill him" she said and my eyebrows raised. 'what the fuck'was the only thought going through my head "did he do something? or..." octavia said. i know i cant really get mad at her, she doesn't know what happened, what i went through. feeling heat rise , i started to panic, O's eyes went wide while she was looking at me and i looked down seeing my hands with scorching heat coming off of them, but not only that, i could see the dark veins popping out on my arms and i could only guess they were showing everywhere else.

"y/n, calm down. whats happening?" she had her hands in front of her, as if telling me not to come any closer. my eyes were darting around like crazy, hoping for no one else to see but i could feel more and more of my body begin to be covered in flames. why am i so angry?, she didn't know. my breathing started to come in and out in short quick breaths, i could feel my eyes change, i could feel the blood pumping in my ears, i could hear the crunch of leaves from probably miles away, i couldn't control it. i could only think of one thing to do, run.

turning and sprinting, i ran past a few people and to my dismay, i saw their scared and horrified looks, shaking my head i sprinted, faster and faster. the more people i saw the faster i went. finally, making it to the gate at the front of camp i didn't hesitate to run through and i didn't stop, not until i had reached the treeline, the buzzing sound of cicadas, chirping of birds, the crunching of snapping twigs and leaves beneath my feet. i ran, past trees and over logs. i didn't know where i was but that didn't matter, getting a glance at my hands and seeing them still covered in the black veins that seemed as though they would burst any second, i could still feel the heat, rising up my arms an lowering back to my hands, why cant i control it?.

i kept running, maybe if i tier myself out it will stop, with that thought i picked up my speed and went even faster is that's possible. i felt the wind fly pas my face and over my body, the heat that was there but didn't burn me, the ache appearing in my legs and the burning feeling i felt when i breathed in or out, i could hear my breathing and it was calming.

slowing my pace down until i had stopped, putting my hands on my knees, i was wheezing, taking in short painful gulps of air, my eyes closed, trying to disperse the pain i was in. it took a while but slowly my breathing started to even out and soon enough i was taking in deep, slow gulps of air, the fresh burn was still there, still burning my throat and lunges with every inhale but at least it wasn't as bad as it was before. opening my eyes and seeing my hands rested on my knees, i could still see the faint black through my tan skin, it was slowly disappearing and i was thankful, it doesn't hurt to have my veins like that, i just cant seem to controls myself or my powers when they are like that and i hate when things are out of my control, especially my own gift, although now i was starting to think of it as a curse, i was like a demon, the devil, daughter of Hades, a dangerous quiet thing. everything bad. but at least i was good. good enough.

octavia pov
I don't know what happened. What did I say wrong? She never mentioned anything about her family but somehow something I said either set her off or made her really pissed off. Seeing her looking back at me with somehow red eyes, the black lines spreading up her arms, neck and over her chin. The fire that burst in her hands sending of a blazing heat. Standing right in front of me, she wouldn't hurt me, would she? Her eyes started farting around frantically and fire started spreading further up her arms then all of a sudden she turns, and runs, faster than I have ever seen her run, it seems with every person she locks eyes with gives her a boost to go faster, it was scary. She didn't stop when the gate came into view and before I knew it she had ran straight through it and over the field, and into the forest. On the field she left some of the dry grass burning but not enough for it to be dangerous.

Feeling a hand on my shoulder and my head snapped to the side to see who it was, "give her time to cool off, somethings obviously wrong" it was Lincoln. Nodding my head in agreement and giving one last look out to where y/n ran off, I sighed and followed Lincoln towards the training ground.

i hope she comes back safe